sorry i have not been around much this year but after a bad start i had some help from bereivment councilors and finally gave myself permission to let go and move on. My journey back started at the end of May when i decided to travel up to Loch Lommond in Scotland and leave my dear husbands ashes on its banks under a large oak tree on the Buchanan estate. My husbands ancestors were Buchanans and so as he is the last of his line it felt right to return him home.
I had a wonderfull experience a few days later when i was at Kenloch leven that made me know my husband was happy with what i had done. See facebookMy little Bambi has done a lot of miles this year because after leaving Stan behind me i then traveled onto the Isle of Sky. for a few nights and then back down the country till i reach Shell island where my tiny dog was attacked by two large ones and he ran blind in panic into the sea and was drown. Needless to say i was totaly devastated because he was my main reason to get up and do on a morning.
two weeks after being home i had lost weighht and also the reason to live but my dear daughter and my friend decided that i needed another dog and to shorten the story i ended up with Ben. he is a chihuahua x jack russell and is now coming on five months old and is totaly adorable. he loves traveling in the Bambi and has never been any trouble.
I do not do much embroidery right now but have made some lap quilts and totes for charities. Life is calming down a little now but i am still going out and about and will be attending an Halloween gathering of the folk group, and following that up with spending Christmas with them rather than being alone.
anyone wanting to see what i have been up to can check out my facebook.
Folk ask how are you and i would say Fine. but what that meant was that i was
Frightened.
Insecure.
Nervouse.
Exhausted.
But the word was what they wanted to hear.
For those who have recently lost a loved one. be assured that time does help the ache to go away. but it will not remove the wonderfull memories of a life you shared.
Ann Badnadge.
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I pray the Lord will be ever close to you as you face each day. He is our great healer of hurting hearts. May he fill yours with love overflowing and wonderful memories of your love. Love lives on forever in your heart and never forgotten. God bless you now. lv Aris
7630I am so glad to hear from you. and even joyful to know you came around to ok. I understand loss, from a young age. My term is hangin in there. Sometimes by just a claw. I will look for you on fb.
173691Glad you could stop by for a while we were wondering what you have up to. So sorry about you little friend life can be cruel sometimes, nice you can now travel with Ben I'm sure he will keep you on your toes. Keep in touch when you can we all love to hear about your adventures. Marian
45918Arrrr, I feel for you, Life is hard, Very hard at times. pull every happiness and bit of love you can from all around.
Hugs Pam.
30988I am so sorry for your loss. I did not go through death but I did go through divorce and both are very traumatic. I will say this, as it has helped me mentally and physically. That the best thing is to get involved in a exercise program. It will make you feel better about your self. My doctors suggested this 30 yrs ago when I was first diagnosed with fibromyalgia and it has been my life saver. I have done it all and now settle for a senior program , but my favorite has always been pilates. Kay
85867Ann, my heart breaks for all your loses. But glad you are beginning to move on & praying you will feel better each day. Hug that little doggie (we had that same mix for yrs & they are adorable) & he will listen without telling you HIS opinion! Hugs from another cutie.
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by eggyannie
26 Sep 2015
my little chowjack is only to happy to chat with me and tell me what i need to be doing at that momment. mostly its pick me up and love me. but he will put both paws om my lips to shut me up when he wants just to be kissed.L0L
35675Oh Annie ,so sorry for all your troubles but i guess it is water we will all half to swim through sooner or latter .I am glad that time heals ,thinking of you Carolyn xxoo
360641you are in my prayers Annie & I am happy that you have some peace. May you continue on this path & know that you are thought of often ~hugging you cyber style~
299559thank you for letting us know how you are, have thought of you so often, thank god for your little guy, sometimes it makes all the difference to be loved and love, little fur children in my case is what makes it a good day. its a big job for such little kids, hugs
2570So lovely to see you back on here Annie. I am so sorry to read of all your sadness but glad that you have another little fur-baby to look after. He sounds as though he has you wrapped around his little finger already and I know what you mean about taking up space on your bed!!! Thank God for our children and good friends - and you are right time is a great healer, but we have our wonderful memories to bring back and remember. Life is for the living and you are certainly doing that. Love and blessings Chris xxx
234492Thank you for checking in with us. We have missed you!
You have had quite a journey and I am glad you now have Ben to help you continue on this journey. I am sorry about your pain and sadness. I am happy you are finding the strength you have deep inside you -- to laugh, love and live!
Hugs and prayers for you. Please come check in with us often.
57675What a beautiful thing you have done in taking Stan back to his roots. I'm glad to hear that you are healing. You must have been devastated loosing your little doggie, but I'm glad that your loved ones saw your need and filled it with Ben. That breed (at least the Jack Russel part) will require you to get out and move. :) It's good to see you back here. I really miss your sense of humor.
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by eggyannie
25 Sep 2015
i have had to learn to laugh again but my little toy boy is such a comic that i could not help but laugh at what he does to torment me. IE he sneaks into the shower room when i am in there and runs off with the plastic net wash thingy as he hates me going under the water and keeps shouting at me when he peeps around the door to make sure i am ok.
158714I like your picture on your fb page. And your sunset at Shell Beach.
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by eggyannie
25 Sep 2015
hope you enjoy reading about my journey to Scotland and Sky and what happened on route. its a journey that i will be doing again next year, i started out so unsure of what i was doing but returned home a month later with just so much more confidence in myself.
2753Ann, having been in the same situation 26 yrs ago I can truly say I know what you have been going through. I was working back then ,had 4 daughters always somewhere near and that helped me to move on. Am glad to hear you have another fur baby that is a good friend and companion. God Bless /Lillian
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by eggyannie
25 Sep 2015
thank you. at the momment i am just enjoying the freedom to do what i want when i want and have no need to look at the clock
145791I quit saying "fine" and said "better," as I felt that was closer to honest. My sister said, say fine, that's what they want to hear. I say that means "they" don't care all that much. Lost my Charles in 2000 and happily remarried, but remember him often and miss him sometimes. Bless you in your healing process.
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by eggyannie
25 Sep 2015
yep i am getting better and the healing has started at last. apparently i did all the right things after my Husband died but did them a bit too fast so had to back up a bit.
66905Oh Ann. I know exactly the feelings you are dealing with and all the words I can muster up are not changing anything. Just know that life still has a lot of enjoyments and your adventurous spirit helps . Glad you have another companion. Something to love, care of and talk to. Hugs
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by eggyannie
25 Sep 2015
poor little dog gets talked to sleep, but he has now learnt to chat back so it sounds so very funny in my home at times.
109774So good to hear from you and your journey. I hope you feel less exhausted and insecure now. I am so glad you now have Ben after your loss of Bambi.
I wish you all the best, enjoy the events you planned with the folk group.
Best wishes, Martine
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145302Dear Annie, how wonderful to have you here again. I am so terribly sorry about your little dog but pleased that another little furbaby has found it's way into your life. May you both give each other joy and comfort. Hugs Sarah
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by eggyannie
25 Sep 2015
got me somthing to cuddle up to at night but for such a small dog he sure likes to spread himself out. LOL
255049Annie it's super to hear from you again as you have been missed . Sorry life hasn't been good but it does now sound as if you have turned the corner as it were and life has proved x C
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by eggyannie
25 Sep 2015
did phone but had no reply so now have no idea how to contact you hope all is well with the family
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