hardly seems enough.
In fact saying thanks to all my Cute family hardly seems enough but I do hope you will forgive me if I don't reply to each message as I am suddenly feeling extremely worn out.It has been one hellova tough day, and the only way I have managed to hold it together was to come here tonight and read all the beautiful, encouraging words of support and feel the love from my Cute family.
To top it off a phone confab with Pauline and planning spending some time together on Tuesday has helped make this day bearable.
When I tell you that Ray's wife died of cancer, I hope you will understand why I am trying to be extra strong and not let him see just how worried i am, this is even tougher on him that it is on me and i hate being the cause of his anxiety, this is not how I wanted our life together to be.
I guess the Master has his reasons, though why he would subject this beautiful man to such pain and anguish not once, but twice, is more than i can comprehend.
Please forgive me, but it's been a big day, only the first of many, over the next weeks, with multiple medical appointments.
I am very tired so may have an early night in bed.
Hugs n roses to one and all, my very dear Cute family, Meganne
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62461Be strong, Rest up . I promise we will not have too big a day on Tuesday, although you do have 2 NEW machines. Mabey i should not promise anything:)
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by meganne
12 Dec 2008
I've had them 2 & 1/2 days and I still haven't turned one on yet. You need to concentrate to do that and my concentration seems to have gone on holidays, wish i could have gone with it. LOL!!
I'm looking forward to Tuesday, hugs n roses, M
42046Meg dear one, my eyes are leaking - as I type you - Loretta will be pleased that you received your heart and it helped you at this time. I did want you to have the guardian angel for this time - so it did get to you in God's time not ours! I echo Teri's sentiments completely - you and Ray may not understand God's plan - but He has one for the both of you - you get with Him and He will guide you. Best sign off - can't see a thing. I am prayer for you and Ray.
211079Dear Meg, may God be with you and those you love most. Never give up, many have overcome even more. You are so lucky to have people who love you so much. We never know what tomorrow may bring, and I know so many people who have overcome as much if not more. I was not supposed to live past my first birthday, and now I am older. You have the right spirit to make it, and all the prayers will help. All the love to you many times over!
1357Meganne, please be strong and take all the rest you can. You are in my mind all the time. I agree weith Teri, she can sayu it so wonderful, but I think my English is not so good to express my feelings to you. Have a big hug.
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by meganne
12 Dec 2008
Iris, God bless you, I understand your English perfectly because i feel the love that comes with it. thank you.
hugs n roses, M
58029Oh, Meganne, you & Ray are both in my prayers! This is a nightmare for you both. Ray's nightmare is different, because of losing his wife to cancer, and thinking it might happen again, and also because it hurts us more, I think, to watch one we love being in pain that it would to be in pain ourselves. Hang tight to each other, we'll be with you here in the Cute Family, holding your hand all the way. My love, Marji
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by meganne
12 Dec 2008
Thank you dear friend, I'm opening my heart and my soul and my spirit will soar on the beautiful wings of God's creations here on earth as I cherish every blessed Ray of Sunshine, especially my own beloved Ray of Sunshine who holds me in his arms every night. I am planning for our next 25 years together and won't let this little hiccup spoil our plans.
hugs n roses, M
33451Meg, we don't know why things happen in life... all I can tell you is that we live in a fallen world where sin and corruption have eaten through what GOD had designed to be perfect. (Read the book of Job in the Bible). BUT, I do know that through all this, GOD is in control and He has a plan.
Ray has been blessed Meg... not cursed... he has been blessed with not one but TWO lovely wives to share what time he has on earth with... so many people go through this world alone, but GOD knew Ray could not... so He brought You into his life after the passing of his last... I am NOT even remotely thinking you won't beat this thing Meg... You're a stubborn tough cookie sister... and nothing, not cancer, not sickness, not disease, will take you until GOD says it's time... So, I want you to live what time you have left, as we all should... heck, I could be hit by a bus on the way to work this morning... but live your life as though you are praising GOD for ALL things.
I praise GOD he has given you Ray. I praise GOD that you have been given a wonderful, encouraging family (online and off) to love on you, support you, hug you, kiss you, comfort you... I praise GOD that He has given you life Meganne! Life... :-) So precious of a word... and WE will all get through this cancer together... I may not be able to be there physically, but I am there in Spirit... And I am there holding your hand, hugging you tightly and kicking you butt to NOT let Satan ruin your precious day or show you that your time on earth is all about cancer (that comes straight from the pit of hell anyway).
Today Meganne, I celebrate... I celebrate YOU and YOUR life... because I can praise GOD that He is incontrol of your body, your marriage and your life... no one else... Satan may think he is, but he is not. And I celebrate the fact YOU WILL BEAT THIS!!!! You are the top and not the bottom, you are above and not below... you are the head and not the tail... you are MORE than a conquerer...
Again, I am there with you... I have survived a disease that was supposed to kill me twice... and I'm 6' tall, (so not tell you my weight), alive and well and ready to stand and fight with you my friend. I have the strengh and power of the LORD and will fight this battle with you in prayer.
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by mimisews2
12 Dec 2008
Good words, Meganne. God loves you, sent His Son to live and die for you, and each of us. Get in His Word and see what He says! Praying for strength and peace for both you and Ray. Love, Debbie
by crafter2243
12 Dec 2008
There is nothing more that I could add. Terri said it beautifully. Keeping you in prayers is all I can do.
by meganne
12 Dec 2008
Teri, I cannot tell you how much your words were so needed right now.
Yesterday was my first day coming to terms with the news that i think i already knew was coming.
Still, suspecting and being told, are not the same and when it happens, it feels like a trapdoor has opened and there's a bottomless, big black void that is trying to swallow me up and sap my very spirit.
Your beautiful words have just showed me the light that will lift me high out of harms way.
I cannot thank you enough for helping me find my way back into God's light.
hugs n roses, always, Meg
33575Words cannot express the way I feel. PLEASE take care of yourself.. WE WILL GET YOU THROUGH THIS with OUR LOVE AND PRAYERS FOR YOU:)
31942Meg, I just can't stop thinking of you. I can't imagine all the pressure is over you now, and words seem not to be enough to cheer up something sad like this with such a wonderful person like you. Sometimes I think life is not fair... Please, be strong, eat well, get plenty of rest... If is there anything I can do, please let me know. My prayers go out to you, my friend.
88650Meganne I have been thinking of you all day & am especially proud to be a Cutie after reading all the messages of love & support sent your way. People have lovely ways to express their support.
Love & God Bless you & your Ray.
Love minicow
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by meganne
12 Dec 2008
Thanks so much Denise. I feel so blessed to be part of this wonderful family.
I'm sorry I haven't had time to do those little designs for you yet, I hope you aren't in a hurry for them for Christmas. I'm finding it hard to organise myself and concentrate on what i need to do just now. Maybe it will be therapy after my OP.
Email me if you need them urgently though and I will squeeze them in.
hugs n roses, M
5141You are tired because you are under so much stress, and we understand it. There will be better days. I learned yesterday that they have found a lump on my daughters breast too.She will be going back to the doctor today. *****
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by meganne
12 Dec 2008
Maria I will pray that your daughter has a better result than mine. Please give her my best and if she needs someone to talk to please feel free to give her my emad. Knowledge is power and she can't know TOO much. Besides the BC website, I found this one helpful> http://www.aolhealth.com/conditio...
hugs n blessings and hoping the best for your daughter, Meg
60484I'm so lucky to have my good health. Apart from the odd hiccup which is more an inconvenience than anything else - at the moment high blood pressure which is uncontrolable. I can't even imagine the trauma you are going through at the moment, but every member of your cute family will wrap you up and share the ups and downs of the coming days/weeks/or however long it takes for you to be strong and well again. Save your strength for the coming fight and rest as much as possible dear meganne Jo
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