I've been going through some medical issues lately. To make a long story short, I've had some horrible female issues that has caused me a lot of pain, grief and sadness.

I am so sorry that you are having such a hard time... We all seem to go through struggles, and some sort of nightmarish situation at some point in our lives. I will definitely be praying for you. May the Lord lead the doctors and May He heal your body! keep us posted.

for anyone - that might have missed this - look for this update - please!

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by marjialexa 19 Jul 2009

Thanks, Shirlene! The update is so important! Love, Marji

by stitchship 22 Jul 2009

See what I mean about you? I would have missed that post if it weren't for you! Thank you so much! *

Oh My Dear Friend, I have only just read this message and wish I could be there to put my arms around you and hug you and tell you it's all going to be ok.

Some of us are meant to carry these personal burdens, for whatever reasons, beyond our comprehension or reasoning.
I tell myself it is so I will be more empathetic and gentle towards others who are suffering, I don't know.
But I do know what you are going through.
Yes, I surely do, I suffered every month for years because of Endometriosis, (and retroverted uterus) and was told I'd never have children. I managed to find a Gyno who risked a radical procedure and helped me deliver two beautiful sons....... my five daughters were not so lucky, and the heartache when I had my hysterectomy at age 30 was beyond explanation. I should have been grateful for my two sons, but I so desperately wanted a daughter.

30 years later I realise I wasn't meant to have a daughter, I was meant to be a mother and confidant for the many 'adopted' daughters i would meet in my lifetime.

My darling Mother in Law (as I mentioned before) who looks so much like Queen Esther, also had alzheimers and the devastation of watching her slowly die was the most unbearably painful experience of my life.
Like me she had no daughters of her own, I was the closest thing and she called me her daughter, so we were very, very, close.

Oh Teri I am crying tears in memory and empathy as I write this because I don't know how to help ease the pain you are going through. The only thing I have to offer is words and they may not hold the comfort I am wanting you to feel. My heart is reaching out to you with all the love and compassion a person can feel when they have been there and know how you must be suffering right now.
I send you all the love and support I can send from downunder and hope that you feel my arms surrounding you in motherly comfort.
You will be in my prayers to give you the strength you need to face the trials ahead of you.

Cry when you want to cry, scream and rant and do whatever you need to do to get through this, it is all you have as nothing is going to make the injustice of it any easier, in the end you will accept the inevitable and you will find the strength to cope. It's what we humans do best and it's what allows us to say: "what doesn't kill me, makes me stronger".

If you need to talk, email me, I am here for you.
With much love, Meg

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God
Bless love and if you are still and wait He Will give you the peace to live with what ever your decision. Much Luv Ronny

Dear Teri,

My prayers and thoughts too for you this weekend. I hope you get to have a wonderful time with the family. Trust in the Lord, always - he listens!

Love and blessings Chris

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Dear Teri, you are always in my thoughts, now will be in my prayers too. God bless you, Yoriko

I will pray for you and your situation. Just open your heart to God and He will do His will for you in His time.
I was only able to have one child (41 years ago) and lucky to have had her. I had many problems before hey did a hystorectomy. Many the same as yours.
Be patient and wait on the Lord.
God bless and keep you and yours,
Becky

Thanks girls for speaking wonderful words of love, prayers and encouragement over me this last week. Emotionally, I'm doing a lot better... physically, well, some days are better than others.

I have chosen to be still and wait. My doctor called me this week ordering more tests (guess the results didn't come back as hopeful as we had anticipated from the 1st go around), but I'm not going to let that affect my future and told her that I will not repeat them. Some may say I'm nuts, but I feel at peace to just let it be for now.

Well girls, I'm headed to GM's house tomorrow to spend a glorious weekend with family. xoxo

teri

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by mops 16 Jul 2009

I wish you a happy weekend and a wonderful reunion with your family. Give your GM a hug from me. Martine

by shirlener88 17 Jul 2009

Do enjoy your weekend with the family up north and rest - God is watching over you, my dear.

Dear Teri,
My prayers will be with you often. I pray that He will protect and comfort you, giving you peace in the decisions that have been made, and those that are yet to come. Try to turn your problems over to the Lord, daily, as He can handle everything. I will pray that you are blessed.
Jacqueline

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May you find peace in the hurt you feel. Only one person knows the plan for us!

Teri, by all means get a second opinion. Go to a fertility specialist and see if you are a candidate to have the fibroids removed without the hysterectomy. I've had a hysterectomy because of hemorrhaging fibroids, but was older and did not plan to have another baby. My daughter was diagnosed in college with severe endometriosis and has had several surgeries. The fertility specialist enabled me to have two precious miracle granddaughters which were both conceived on first try with his expertise, which I won't go into here. Believe me we had a lot of prayers also. With the Lord's help and Dr.Toledo of the Atlanta fertility Clinic a miracle was performed twice. We all love you and will pray for you and please see another Dr. Love, Kay

Just a note so you know you're in my thoughts & prayers. Big hugs, Marji

I am praying for you also...Their are so many ways now for children to fill your lives...God has sooo many children needing good parents to love them unconditionally....We just recently became foster parents and the things we here are really unreal...Our LORD does have a purpose for you...miracles do happen...maybe not the way you want it to go, but the way JESUS wants it to go....I too had issues on the ovaries, had a complete one done...Personally
it was the best thing for me (except those darn hot flashes..hehehe)...Wait upon the LORD to reveal his purpose in his time and you will not be disappointed in the outcome....All children are the LORDS...So whatever/whomever he chooses for you is what he sees as the best....lol-many prayer headded towards you....

Teri, No one can take away your pain or your sadness except God. You are aware of that. My prayer is that a mighty work is done through you because God hears your cries and weeps with you, his beloved. There is something special that he has for you. Be open to it and listen for it.
I had endometriosis and had a complete hysterectomy at age 34. I had 2 surgeries and took 3 experimental drugs before that and had 2 beautiful children. I was one of the lucky ones and am thankful for that. I understand how you feel, but being a woman is not what organ you have. It is your heart and your head. You are a beautiful woman and nothing can change that. Having the surgery will give you a new life - trust me. I was having 1 good week a month. Lay it at the feet of our Lord. He wants to take it from you. You are precious and loved. Be blessed.

Oh, Teri, I weep for you! I will pray for healing and acceptance. Just too much in my heart to write it now, but I do know part of what you're feeling. I was told at 19 that I'd never carry a child. It altered my whole life, but at a point it COULD be altered. You both have love to give, I've never understood men's problem with adoption. Does life have to have the same DNA as yourself to be worthy of care? Would there not be a little one in Israel even, who lost parents perhaps, who could use a couple of good ones? Oh, fooey, like you don't know these things. Shalom, sister, you have my prayers. Love, Marji

Sweetheart you are in my prayers. Believe me I know what you are going through. i had to have a hystorectomy when i was 20 because of the same thing. I was very lucky because I had 2 children before that happened but not with out alot of trouble carring them. I pray God gives you piece of mind and the strength to accept his will what ever it may be. Just know I will be praying for you and hoping your pain eases both mentally and physically. God Bless Love and blessings Always Ronny

Teri, for some time you have been in my prayers and I will continue to pray for you - at this time - acceptance of God's will - more than anything else - He will take you through this and will be with you the whole way. When we think of all that has happened to you and what you have gone through - our hearts ache for you, too. I know when my own daughter went through a very difficult pregnancy and almost lost her baby - I was so fearful of that loss - but for whatever reason she did have the baby - that is Rikki - when she had to have a hysto - for the same reason that you will - she was heart sick - she was sure that she was supposed to have another little girl - years later - when she married her NOW husband - he had a baby girl - with a woman that he never married - that was Katie - whom thinls of Sheila as her mother completely - even though she has a natural mother - it is Sheila that has loved an nurtured her - I don't know what God has in store for you - it is so hard to ever know the why of things - but I do believe that He will help you - when the time is right - you have my prayers and I do hope the pain eases some for you.

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Teri, you and QE have been on my prayer list for a long time, and will stay there - with a specific request for you. Years ago after a number of miscarriages I lost a son after 25 weeks of pregnancy - March 18th (so I'll never forget you) - and though I had 4 beautiful children afterwards, it still hurts. I remember too well useless, inadequate and guilty I felt. Everybody was having children, and my body was rejecting them at one stage or another. It must be heartbreaking for you to have a hysterectomy and accept the end of your dreams. I'll be praying for a miracle and that GOD will grant you peace of mind whatever happens. Much love, Martine

Teri, I don`t know what to say either but you will be in my thoughts!! Hang in there....and yes there are parents out there who do not deserve to be parents. Life is cruel.

Teri, My heart is with you and you are in my prayers. You are so talented and generous it just isn't fair. Sorry that you have to has physical pain too. Ugh!

Sometimes I just don't have the words so I just say "I will pray for you". Hugs Angie

Teri, My heart aches for u, Oldest daughter had endometriosis so I understand the pain, been through with her. The youngest tried & tried to know avail to have children, finally at age 43 she & her DH gave up. As u have already said only God can give u what u need, He says Come unto me all ye that are heavy laden & I will give u rest. Teri I have learned (the hard way) God has a reason for everything it's hard for our finite minds to see this. Just trust & rely on him & know u r n my prayers. Much love Lillian *s for u

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by simplyrosie 07 Jul 2009

Thanks Lillian... I pulled out a box that has been at the top of my closet for years. In that box are two blankets I sewed and one that I crocheted for a child I desperately wanted. I also had a picture frame of Noah's ark and a silver bracelet I was going to engrave my baby's name. I told my Mother I was going to give the stuff away, but she suggested not. She said that maybe Jim would be open to adoption someday....who knows. I've convinced myself for a while that I didn't want kids basically to cover the pain that I couldn't.

I know that it rains on the just and on the unjust, but why does this have to hurt so bad? :-( I see people all the time having children that are uncared for... oh well, we keep marching on don't we. lol. I'm going to wipe the tears from my eyes now and sing praises. xoxo

by lbrow 07 Jul 2009

God bless Terri, don't forget God has a reason. Ask Him to please reveal this to u & in time He will.