by lflanders 03 Aug 2010

at 6:00 in the morning her mommy went into labor and had one of the boys before I could even get dressed. I called the Vet and got him out of bed and we both headed to the office. The babies were very early. There were 5 boys and 1 tiny little girl. The Vet gave them zero chance of making it. We lost 2 of the boys the 1st day and I watched the other 3 boys grow up, 2 at my house and 1 my friend took. I fed them with an eyedropper for several weeks because they were so very tiny. The boys all left us before the 8th year. My precious little angel, Bebe left this world at 7:45 tonight. She was 14 years, seven months, and 11 days old. She fought the battle of her life to stay here with me! She has had cancer since she was 10. The last year has been really hard on her but she tried so hard to fight it and stay here with her Mommy. We have been through some bad times together but she has never wavered in her love for me and my son, Brian. He did not like to admit it but he had a very soft spot in his heart for her. Up until just last week, she would hear him come in the door and she would perk up and bark to get his attention.

In Dec. I was so sure that she was just about gone and she rallied back and a few weeks ago, I went as far as making an appt. to have her put down and then again, she got better before we got her there. About 3 days ago, I told my son that I did not think she would make it but another few days this time; tonight, she lost her battle with her cancer. She would not eat nor drink water today so I knew it was time. She laid in her basket beside me for the last 10 or 11 hours and tried to talk to me several times and then she closed her eyes and went to sleep, For Good. My baby Pekingese has gone into hiding after she said her good-by. My son came and got My Bebe and took her over to his new house to bury her. Where I live, it is not permissable. She took her teddy bear with her. It was bought for her the first Christmas when she was only 2 days old and it was always her favorite. As she got older and big enough to carry it around, she would not let any of the boys touch her white Teddy. Tonight I lost an angel and my best friend. I can not quit crying although I am glad that she is not suffering any longer. My little sweetie pie, Patty is still hiding. she tried to follow Brian out the door. She did not understand that Bebe was not coming back. My heart is breaking but although she is gone, she will not be in pain ar sick anymore. She had lost most of her beautiful white coat and it was still comming out. I really did not realize how thin she had become because of her beautiful coat until just recently. She ate good up until just a few days ago. There is another angel in heaven tonight. Thanks for listening. I just need to vent and try to get through with these tears. I just pray that she knew how much we love her! Goodnight my angel!

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by dianned 06 Aug 2010

I'm so very very sorry for your loss. I do know how it feels, I've been there myself. You will never forget her, and it would be wrong to want to do so. Comfort Patty while she grieves too, and Brian - he may not want to show it but I'm sure his heart is breaking too.

With love and sympathy from Dianne x x x

"In His hand is the soul of every living thing" (Job ch. 12 v. 10)

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lflanders by lflanders 06 Aug 2010

Thanks so much for your kind thoughts. It is hard on me and Patty, the one left alone. They were never play buddies because Bebe was so much older when I got Patty but Bebe would lay down beside her when they were napping and called herself looking after the baby. I am sorry I did not let her have puppies now, but that is just being selfish! She was always the happiest creature on this earth. Her Uncle Gizzy before her had that same wonderful caring personality also. She was not selfish about anything, not even her food. The only thing I ever knew of her to retrieve from the other furbabies was her Teddy Bear. It went to bed with with her every night of her life until the last few months. I bought it for her a couple of days after she was born and it was her constant companion. I never had to repair it and it still looked rather good until the end. It's music box would no longer play but it was the Teddy that she loved. Teddy was buried with her. She was born 2 days before Christmas and it was a white Christmas Teddy Bear.

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by nualaa 06 Aug 2010

So sorry for your loss

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lflanders by lflanders 06 Aug 2010

Thank you for caring. I do miss her but she is in a much better place now, with no pain. She knew how much she was loved until the very end.

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by castelyn 06 Aug 2010

Linda, I am so sorry to hear your news about Bebe. You are in my thoughts and prayers. Hugs Yvonne

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lflanders by lflanders 06 Aug 2010

Thank You, Yvonne. My precious baby is gone but will always leave her footprints on my heart.

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by psssst 05 Aug 2010

With tears in my eyes and sorrow in my soul I extend to you my sincerest condolences. I know to my very core the pain you are feeling from losing someone you so dearly loved. I believe, and I pray that you do too, that this place we call home (Earth) is merely a moment of our eternal life. I know I will be reunited with all of my loved ones that have gone onto Heaven already, let this be of comfort to you in these times. Hold onto the memories but cherish the fact that someday you shall be reunited again.

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lflanders by lflanders 06 Aug 2010

Thanks you so much for your kind thoughts and words. Bebe was a very dear little creature and will always miss her. When I was so sick several yrs back and nearly died, she stood watch over me. She was an angel here on earth. Loved ones, human and furbabies should be cherished while that are here on this earth. They are your constant companions!

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by lbrow 05 Aug 2010

Linda I am so very sorry , my heart aches for you, yet I know how much better it is for Bebe now. Suffering is so sad for anyone & any pet. Pain is awful we all know what it is to hurt.. Comfort Patty for she like you will grieve. You have each other to console. She knew how much you loved her, you know she did & you know how much she loved you. That was her joy in life, loving you & pleasing you. comfort yourself with those thoughts. Love Lillian

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lflanders by lflanders 05 Aug 2010

Thanks for your sweet comments. Yes, she knew how much I loved her and I know how happy she was to be here with me. She slept in my lap for several years, at night. I had not slept in the bed for more than 15 yrs when I got so sick and had the surgery. I had 2 recliners in the living room and one was hers and the other was mine. I kept a sheet on hers so her hair would not ruin the chair but as soon as it got time to go"nite-nite", she was in my lap. I have the cutest picture of her in my recliner after folding the clothes out of the dryer and BEFORE I got them put up. I had just bathed her and dryed her off with a towel and walked in the living room and she was sound asleep ,yes, you guessed it, on top of my clean clothes. In the picture, Bebe looked like she had been drugged or had been drinking. She was in another world. Life is full of messes but life is not full of thode special furbabies so I never fussed at her of any of the others when they did things that just come naturally to pet. My Patty is ready to go to bed and so am I! I have been sick all day/night. I had to go to Walmart to get something to take for it and go up to the office to and pay my rent but even being sick and HOT(have no idea what the temp or the heat index was)did not keep me out of trouble today. I was driving Brian's junk truck, parked at WalMart in the handicapped spot and had a ticket when I came out. I had to go to the policestation because Brian was so upset that the ticket was going to b esent to him and that he was the one that was going to have it on his record that I preceeded to go and find the station and I talked to the "chief", he was kind enough to volunteer to change it to a warning. I walked in and introduced myself and told him what happened and he was very nice about it. I am 63, been driving since I was 16 and I have never had any kind of ticket. All the police,sheriff's deputies, and state patrol's in my hometown knew I had a heavy foot but they also knew I did not play, drink, or play behind the wheel so they never stopped me. Of course it did not hurt that I kept a State Patrol's two boys for several years. I went to pay the ticket and walked away not having to, because I went to see about it right then and of course, I do have a handicapped permanant tag on my car.
I am babysitting a teenie furbaby tomorrow, and Kiwi looks like a large rat with big pointed ears. My gread daughter left he hubby Sunday after Brayden's B-Day party. My son and her Mother does not want a dog in the house so--- it looks as though I might have another furbaby. She and Patty must get along and Kiwi must have good house manners. I am too old to try and train an adult canine! I am afraid that Patty might try to hurt her. We will see.....

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by 02kar Moderator 05 Aug 2010

I am crying with you as I type. It is so hard to lose a furry child. They are not pets, but family members with full memebership. The hole in you life is so immense right now. And I know nothing can or will ever fill it. But oh what wonderful memories you have of Bebe. Hank on to each and every memory. Treasure them and what a wonderful Mom you have been to and for her.

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lflanders by lflanders 06 Aug 2010

I was finally able to stop crying constantly yesterday. I had to go out to buy some groceries and my whole face was swollen and my eyes were blood red. I did not make a pretty picture. Getting out of the house must have helped some. I have almost 15 yrs of wonderful memories starting with the morning she was born. She was silly and sweet from the start. She could steal everyone's heart in just a few minutes. after a few years, the silly part went away and she was alot more serious. She took her role as constant companion very seriously. She tried to make every step I made. bebe was my friend and buddy! I miss her so much but I am glad that she is in a better place now. The cancer took an awful toll on her little body and she was still fighting to stay here up until the last few days. When she quit eating Sunday, I knew she did not have long. I fixed and bought everythign she liked but she would not eat. Monday she would not drink anything and she drank a very large bowl of water everyday. I knew that it was the beginning of the end. I even tried to give her soup and water through a very large eyedropper type syringe on Tuesday but she would not have it. I picked her up and put her in a basket and carried her in the office with me so I could watch her every minute. She slept most of the day with the exception of the few times she tried to talk to me. her barks were not really barks but were more like cries. She is no longer in pain or sick. She can be happy and play with her siblings now.

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by pennifold 05 Aug 2010

Dear Linda,

I'm bawling my eyes out here - I feel so much for you and know what you are going through. I am so thankful that she was with you till the end. My mum lost her beloved dog on the operating table and they had to ring her and tell her, how awful was that?

No-one will ever replace your beloved Bebe, but you are fortunate to have another fur baby to look after you in Patty. I know it will take time to heal, but hey, haven't you got years and years of memories of her?

God bless dear Linda and I pray that your days will be filled with love and laughter again.

Love and blessings Chris

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lflanders by lflanders 06 Aug 2010

Chris, it has been very hard to answer all of the cares and concerns from everyone that wrote a note. I appreciate everyone's caring thoughts more than you know. Brian even acted like he used to be when he came to get her because she could not be buried where I live. He carried her to his new house and she is buried where I can put a monument for her. She adored Brian and would cry when he left after a visit. He was home with her up until 6 yrs ago but he also kept her when I had surgery and had to go to the nursing home for 8 months. He would get out and run with her and they would have a good time together. He would have still been taking up time with her if it were not for his wife disliking animals so much.
By the way, my step grand daughter left her hubby last Sunday with their 2 boys and moved back home with her Mom and and my son. Gail did not want her tiny little rat looking dog in her house so at 7:00 this morning when she started to school, I got Kiwi! She ia about 6 yrs old and looks like an overgrown rat but is very sweet. Brittney's real Dad was going to take it but I do not think she wanted him to have it. Seems they all decided that I was the one to take Kiwi. It took her to about 4:00 this afternoon to come and jump on me wanting sugar. She has always been friendly to me and has never barked at me at all. Not house trained but does not make a mess if you take her out on a regular schedule, not fixed, and sleeps in the bed with Brittney and her soon to be X. I had decided that now that I was not having to stand over Bebe and clean up behind her constantly that I would finally be able to get back to my crafts and I have a new child to break in. She is already set in her ways so it is going to have to be me that does the changing this time. She has been good today and has let me know everytime she had to go. She has plundered in every crack and crevice in this place today but has not bothered anything so maybe after a few days, things will settle down. I live right on the highway so my girls have to be leashed. I told them I would try it for a week and let them know if I was going to keep her but I knew that if Patty did not try to kill her that I would keep her. Patty is jealous and has been under my feet all day but has been good. What have I done? All in all, today went pretty good. We had no mishaps and no dog fights! My nerves are just not up to this right now but I think my son is trying to make me be alright. I have been taking Imodium since Tuesday. When my nerves are on edge I have bad stomach problems! I have been that way since I was a child. I miss my Bebe already and I have not slept since last sunday so I am not good for much of anything right now. Thanks so much for caring. Hugs, Linda

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by dalmar6677 04 Aug 2010

I am so sorry for your loss. Our pets become our family.

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by haydebug 04 Aug 2010

Linda, so sorry for your loss! Big hug! Kim

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by dgarner 04 Aug 2010

Linda, dear one --
I just saw your post (did not get to read the Cuties pages last night).
I am so sorry to hear of Bebe's passing. I know she is better off, but I grieve with you. It hurts so much -- and only someone who has lost a pet can understand that pain.
Know that I understand, and that I am praying for God to send soothing and peace to you.
Time does lessen the pain, but it never fades the memories...
Blessings,
Diane

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lflanders by lflanders 08 Aug 2010

Thanks Diane for your kind words. I will be alright but I really miss Bebe!

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by marietta 04 Aug 2010

Linda, I am feeling with you tonight, I am so sorry to hear that she has now gone. In October last year I lost my little baby "doggie" girl too. I do not think I have cried so much in my life, but as time goes on we do not forget, but we accept. I still feel her around sometimes, and am so scared that if i get another little one, I will go through the same pain.
When I am down, I still go and sit somewhere on my own and cry, but as you are saying all her pain and sickness is gone now, and you know? I believe that they are sitting at Gods feet, and are looking down on us, and that they are happy where they are.
Lots of warm hugs for you, and may God bless you.
Marietta

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by katydid 04 Aug 2010

We talked, You know how I feel. She is in a better place with no more pain.

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lflanders by lflanders 04 Aug 2010

I know it is for the best but this small little creature has been by my side constantly for almost 15 yrs. She was the one that was with me when I was so sick and she watched over me like a mother hen. She has been a blessing to me since the day she was born and I DID NOT want he Mom to bring more babies in this world because there are so many now that need homes. My son, The Vet and his Wife out-voted me. I gave in and I have not been sorry a minute until last night. I did not want her to suffer! She was my child(with fur and 4 legs)and no one that loves human or creature wants to see them suffer! It still hurts! You can not stop the horrible feelings of losing someone or something that you love. Bebe is better off and has been spared a long painful drawnout ending to a wonderful life. She was always the sweethert in the house. She was stubborb about doing things her way but she was a sweet girl and sooo loving to everyone. She was quiet and always had a habit of wandering the house at all times of the night. I used to laugh and say she was a tiny watch-dog with a big heart. For a very long time, when I was sick and slept in the recliner at night, she slept in my lap. We were 2 of a kind. Neither one of us slept very much. After I got Patty in Oct of 2007, she finally relaxed and slept at night. I think she was handing off her self-appointed job to Patty. NOT! Patty sleeps as long as it is not storming. She is terrified of bad weather. She was my buddy and friend for many years and it is going to very hard to get used to not having her. She was sick too long but she made the very best of it. Only in the last couple of days did she start to cry out for me several times a day. I actually prayed that she would be taken quickly so as not to have to be in pain. Her body was frail and weak. Yes, she is much better off in Doggy heaven. She is, I am not. It will take some time. Thanks so much for caring about both of us.

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by asterixsew Moderator 04 Aug 2010

Linda, thinking of you. Just remember the good times that you have had

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lflanders by lflanders 08 Aug 2010

I could never forget that precious little angel and all of the wonderful times we spent together.

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by turtleowl 04 Aug 2010

I feel for you. It is so hard to say goodbye to a furbaby.

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lflanders by lflanders 08 Aug 2010

Yes, it is awfully hard to know I have lost an angel who loved me as much as I loved her!

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by memasanders 04 Aug 2010

I'm so sorry.

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lflanders by lflanders 08 Aug 2010

Her pain is gone and Bebe has lost her long battle but she will live in my heart forever!

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by shirlener88 04 Aug 2010

Linda, I am so sorry for your loss.

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lflanders by lflanders 08 Aug 2010

Thanks for the kind words. She is/was a very special little girl that loved everyone. She will live on in my thoughts and in my heart. She gave soooo much while she was with me, love and being my little friend was the most important. Bebe left us knowing how much she was loved!
My prayers are still with You and Rick and I do hope that he continues to improve. Where thereis a will, there is a way. Trust in the Lord and know that He is an all knowing Loving God!

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by keeponsewing 04 Aug 2010

Linda, when I say I understand I truly do. It has been about 5 yrs. since we had to put our "baby" down. She was in so much pain, she would cry all the time, I just couldn't stand it. So we had her put to sleep. She is in a much better place. Remember you still have others to keep you company. Granted they won't take Bebe's place, but they love you just the same. Praying you will be comforted by the thought that we all are thinking of you and praying for you during this time.

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lflanders by lflanders 04 Aug 2010

Patty was adopted in Oct of 2007, just before I had to move to the Atlanta area. She is only 4 yrs and 4 months old now but when I went to TN to pick her up she was scared, a wild child, very well taken care of and loved (rotten) by her foster Mom. She is very well behaved, much calmer, but still a puppy, and so very smart! You call her and she is standing beside you, you tell her No and she sits still, she is pad trained, eats good(anything) and she now loves to snuggle. She is a very quiet baby and only barks if she hears a strange noise. When she barks, you know that something is different. She is very cautious around most strangers but picks out a few that she automatically adores. My son has a friend that comes to visit me sometimes and she was all over her when she spoke to Patty the 1st time. Karen is an animal lover and Patty knew from the time she walked in the door. She amazes me with her reaction to different people and she has never been wrong. She is crazy about the young guy that lives next door to me and he deserves her friendship. He can see me unloading groceries and trying to get up my steps and he will walk over and just start helping me. She is a very good judge of peple and I trust her opinion of people better than I do mine. She will run in the office when I am online, jump up on my leg get some sugar and take off out of here. I have banned her from coming in here because of her long hair, carpet, computer keyboard, and my embroidery machines. Her long hair is not good for any of these things. She will get some sugar and run back in the kitchen or livingroom. I can't even fuss at her because she impresses me so much with her adorable antics. She is too smart for her own good!

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