I just received a package from outside the US, the envelope didn't give enough info for even hubby to figure it out, the note enclosed wasn't signed either but it is a stuffed heart with beautiful red embroidery on the front and on the back it says, "To Debra with love from a Cutie". I am in tears, so many of you have shown me so much love in my time of...of what? I can't describe what I am feeling. Cancer is not fun but I am trying hard not to let it get me down. I just want all you wonderful people to know just how much I so appreciate that you care about me though we have never met. I have already told my husband and my friend that she gets all the embroidery things I have so she can learn to do it and this site will be listed as the place for her to come and learn the things you have all taught me during the past 2 years. I am going to Cleveland Clinic on Dec. 20th to see what they think and we may see if my insurance will let me go to the Cancer Treatment Centers of America if Cleveland doesn't have anything helpful. Since it is in so many of my bones I don't know what they will do. I talked to God and it is His decision, I only hope his plan for me is what I would like it to be. OK, no more tears but to the wonderful person who surprised me with the heart, thank you!

Praying that all goes well for you today and you hear a positive response from doctors. I have heard good things about the CTC of America. If that is the direction doctors want you to go, I hope that your insurance will agree. My husband has been sick for a long time and I had to be very agressive to get him the treatment he needed. Don't back down if first you get a "no" to your requests!! God bless you.

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by leenova54 20 Dec 2011

Thank you. Going to do different chemo and more but no better answers today.

Debra, thinking positive thoughts for you tomorrow

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by leenova54 20 Dec 2011

Thank you, it was today, different chemo but no better hope than offered before.

Good luck on your visit. God DOES answer prayer all we need is faith and will show us the way. God bless you and be with you.
Hugs
Elizabeth

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by leenova54 20 Dec 2011

I need the prayers, going to try different chemo but it doesn't sound any better.

My dear Friend, I am praying for your recovery and for strenght on this long road. I am walking the road with two types of breast cancer :- one is fastspreading and can only be controlled with intensive chemo and the other is operable, which they cannot do because of the other. I was itching so bad, that I thought it was the chemo, but it was viral breast cancer. Have had radiation and chemo yesterday and today. Will be repeated on Friday, and so on. Good luck and God's riuchest blessing go with you and your DH. May he also find strenght to support you and be there for you. My husband is also a spoiled man, who cannot do things for himself in the home, and do not even know how to take his own medication when I am not here. God Bless, Susie.

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by asterixsew 20 Dec 2011

Susie thinking positive thoughts for you too

by sewbadly 20 Dec 2011

Best wishes, Susie.

by leenova54 20 Dec 2011

Thank you Susie, prayers and good thoughts for you too. This is a terrible disease and hard on everyone.

just xox and cossed fingers that you get the best treatment

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by leenova54 20 Dec 2011

Thank you, going to try different chemo but it is not looking good.

Dear Debbie,

God hears the prayers of all the faithful and He will be with you as you journey to and from the clinic. I know there have been many prayers offered for you and your husband as you travel this path. Just remember we are all with you in spirit and pray for God's tender mercy. Love and blessings to you all Chris

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by leenova54 20 Dec 2011

Clinic doctor is going to tell my oncologist to use different chemo drugs but still not a good outlook.

Was just praying for you tonight. I hope that tomorrow you are given a plan to work toward. Know that you are being blanketed by prayers and cyber hugs from all of your "Cute" sisters. I know that God's plan for you is the best plan and tomorrow if you start to feel alone or afraid, feel his hand on your shoulder. It will be there if you ask. Oh, and wear the hat!

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by leenova54 20 Dec 2011

Thank you so much, I feel so loved and surrounded by wonderful strong women. The hat, no, not the monkey at the hospital, I'll wear my gray hat with the little lizard with ruby eyes, it's warm but it comes off cause my head gets hot and itchy. The monkey is for my parents on Christmas eve, lol!

Dear Debra.
Best of luck at the Cancer Treatment Center. Most of these places accept any medical insurance. They never turn anybody down. My husband goes to Fox Chase Hospital in Philadelphia. He has non-hudgekins lymphoma.
He has Medicare and AARP health insurance, and doesn't pay a dime. Right now he is on his fifth kind of Chemo treatment. Last time he was injected with "radioactive" for 3 sessions. This was another Clinical Trial, and they have hundreds of them. I'm sure they will give you something suitable for your condition. Have faith. We will keep you in our thoughts and prayers.
Hugs and blessings Rachel

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by sewbadly 20 Dec 2011

Best wishes to you and your husband.

by leenova54 20 Dec 2011

Thank you, this is for the Cleveland Clinic here in Ohio, they are suppose to be really good too, my insurance only agreed to 2 visits for now, if they don't offer hope then we will try to move on to the Cancer Treatment Center if my insurance will OK it. I'm hoping for a Clinical Trial so my insurance won't fight me on it. I can't get Medicare for another 8 years, hubby just started on it in Nov. I'm gonna fight though, I promised my Mom again tonight before she started to cry again. Parents should not have to bury a child. Hubby is trying to hang tough, he lost his Mom when he was 13 and his Dad when he was early 30s, one sister in 2003 I think it was.

by sukira 20 Dec 2011

Debra, you have to fight them. We never went to the Cancer Center, but I wish you could come to Philly to Fox Chase. It's huge. They told us they process 1000 patients with Chemo a day. It's heartbreaking walking through the waiting rooms. I wish you the best, and we will pray for you. Take care. Hugs and blessings, Rachel

We have you in our hearts and prayers and will keep holding tough with you.

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by leenova54 20 Dec 2011

Thank you, I appreciate every one of you!

Dear Debra,
My prayers are with you and your DH. Wish I lived closer so I could give you a big hug in person.
You're so brave and strong, and such a good example of how to face difficult times with honor, humor and humility.
Love,
Jacqueline

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by leenova54 20 Dec 2011

Thank you so much, I really try, some days are easier than others.

Deb, Here is a huge hug from me to you too.I am praying right now ans I type, so please excuse mistakes. Dear God, please be with Deb, and help her be strong, please give her and her husband wisdom to make the right choices, and to feel peace about putting her life totally in your hands. May this Christmas be very special for them, Dear Father. In Jesus Name, Amen with love, Jan

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by leenova54 20 Dec 2011

Thank you, tears now but that's OK, I just really am not ready to leave yet.

i will pray for you
i hope you will feel better soon
i know cancer is very hard and hurt to much people
big hugs Sonja

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by leenova54 20 Dec 2011

Thank you, it is hard, today was so much more pain than usual and it's on the side that has the least bad spots so I don't understand why I hurt there.

by sewbadly 20 Dec 2011

Did your ribs on your right side suddenly flair with pain? I have broken ribs simply by coughing... so I wonder.

Debra, my thoughts and prayers are with you during this dificult time in your life. The cutie who sent the heart sent you love. I am sending hugs and love your way too.
Diane

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by leenova54 20 Dec 2011

Thank you so much, it really is tough, trying to be strong for my parents, my hubby and my sons plus a couple of friends who tried so hard not to cry around me.

Debra, you are in our thoughts and prayers. Hugs, Stella

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by leenova54 20 Dec 2011

Thank you Stella, be glad when the day is over and I know if they can do anything to help me. My poor hubby is beside himself. He can't take care of himself without me telling him what to do.

Thinking of & praying for you tomorrow. We ask why some people suffer...but remember Christ's answer as why one man suffered "To give glory to the Father." Ah. I can see your giving glory to God even thru all this. His well be done, but praying our heart's desire is His will.

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by leenova54 19 Dec 2011

Thank you. I am trying to be as strong as I can with His help and everyone who cares so much.

A lovely thoughtful gift for you and just when you needed it most...no more tears now, good luck on the visit to the Clinic hope they have some good news for you...hugs Glenda *4U x0x0x0

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by leenova54 19 Dec 2011

I hold back the tears as much as I can, hubby doesn't know what to do or say and I know he is so worried. My Mom makes me cry!

How wonderful for you to receive the embroidered hear from one of our "sister" cuties. You are in our hearts and minds and we are praying for you every day. I hope tomorrow goes well for you. I will be thinking and praying for you. Hugs, Mary

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by leenova54 19 Dec 2011

Thank you, it sure was sweet and I have received so many angels that are hanging on my Christmas tree and a cross and a butterfly!

*4u

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by leenova54 19 Dec 2011

And one for you too!

Kisses in your heart.

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by leenova54 19 Dec 2011

Thank you Dilceia, you are so sweet!

It's the 20th here right now and I'm thinking of you and sending a Huge Aussie Hug to keep you safe on your journey. For you and your husband I will be asking for strength for you both to walk this road hand in hand.
AlmaG.

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by leenova54 19 Dec 2011

I wish it was here so it would be over with, they probably won't be able to tell me anything more anyway but there is still hope in my heart! I talked to God but he hasn't answered yet.

*4u

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by leenova54 19 Dec 2011

And for you too!

Heloo, my dear...am happy for you that you recieved that heart! Missed you.

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by dilceia 19 Dec 2011

God bless.

by leenova54 19 Dec 2011

Thanks, still wondering just who sent it, lol. Oh well, I am sure they know how much it meant to me when I saw it!

God bless.

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by leenova54 19 Dec 2011

Thank you!

Love and hugs from me too! Lidia

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by leenova54 18 Dec 2011

Thank you, it all helps, trust me! This morning I was crying and tonight I am wrapped with love.

Big hugs your way and prayers too

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by leenova54 18 Dec 2011

Thank you so much. You all mean the world to me.

What a lovely surprise...cyber love and hugs can do wonders to lift your spirits. Huge hugs Sally

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by leenova54 18 Dec 2011

Thank you, it was such a surprise, almost my own secret santa and I didn't get in on it, lol. Hopefully next year!

I too am sending a hug....you are cared about and for!

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by leenova54 18 Dec 2011

Aww, thank you, hugs are good!

I am happy for you that you recieved that heart! It doesn't matter who it came from, just that others care about you!!! Hugs & Prayers, Judy

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by leenova54 18 Dec 2011

That is so true Judy, I am so blessed to have found all you wonderful people 2 years ago! My embroidery machine was to keep me busy during chemo the first time around and now here we are with an uncertain future.

Love and Hugs for you dear Debra.
Nadyne

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by leenova54 17 Dec 2011

Thank you, hugs are nice, even cyber ones!

Lifting you up each day in prayer!

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by leenova54 17 Dec 2011

Thank you, I can use every one of them!

Very specail - love from around the World - and if God hears us all, he will be looking after you. Best of luch with the testing on the 20th.

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by leenova54 17 Dec 2011

Yes, it touches me every time I see an envelope from a cutie. No tests on the 20th, they will just be looking over all the tests I have already had, the hospital put it on 4 CDs for the doc to look at so it will take him or her some time!

Dear Debbie,

How wonderful to receive that special red heart, just when you needed it(it wasn't me!)

I want you to know I'm thinking of you over on the other side of the world and will be praying for you on the 20th.

What a thoughtful gesture too that you are giving your friend. Keep your humour and as you say, whatever is going to happen is in God's hands. His Will be done. Love to you and your family Chris

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by leenova54 17 Dec 2011

Thanks Chris! When I told my friend I thought she was going to cry but she knows how hard it is on me when my Mom cries so she sucked it up and didn't cry...at least while I was there.

Well we all love you Deb and want the best for you BUT in thee end HE desides hugs carolyn

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by leenova54 17 Dec 2011

Thank you! Very true, I talked to Him last night during my shower and told Him how I would like this to go but in the end, I am not the one who gets to decide.

WOW, how special - too bad they didn't let you know who they were - but I know that they support and love you or they wouldn't have done it. Way to go!

I will be praying for you dear in reference to the Cleveland trip - please know - while you are gone - we will all be thinking about you and wondering how everything is going for you. Travel safely.

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