Dear cuties, first I would like to thank you for all the gifts and cards you have send m and how supportive you have been and I would like to ask you not to send me anymore gifts since it will fall on hubby to figure out what to do with them all. Last Christmas my doctor gave me 12-18 months, another said 50% chance I'd be here for next Christmas and 25% chance I'd be here the following one. Yesterday I was told there was no change in my scans with what they had before but I do have another spot on a rib and something on my head and offered me to stop chemo and they would give me stuff to keep my bones strong and try to manage my pain. I decided to continue chemo and see what happens. I am not ready to give up but my chances are not good. As you can imagine this is very hard on my husband and sons and parents. My Mom called last night after I emailed them and all she did was cry and that doesn't help me any. I have to go get ready for chemo, I have to eat something but don't feel like it so toast and orange juice I guess. I will still pop on here and try to embroider some things for my kids, working on canvas bags with the farmers market designs for my DIL and maybe to be DIL. Thank you for being here for me dear cutie friends.

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hugs and flowers for all

Debra, Thank you for being here for me when my brother was so sick - I hope you will know that I am here for you ( in prayer) now. As long there is breath there is hope!! Love you - my friend I have never met.

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by leenova54 21 May 2012

Thank you so much! I am strong and getting more done around the house than in a long time. I think the Spring cleaning bug hit me as it has never before cause I am working my butt off. It frustrates hubby cause he doesn't like me to over do but I have things I want done, this week has been the computer/sewing room! I am feeling well but sore from all the work. Hugs, Debra

by leenova54 21 May 2012

have things I want done, this week has been the computer/sewing room! I am feeling well but sore from all the work. Hugs, Debra

by cfidl 28 May 2012

I empathize with you. It is a good feeling to get some of the chores done! LLDS!

So glad you are so strong. We are all in Gods hands and on His time table. Your positive attitude will carry you a long way. God Bless!

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by leenova54 19 May 2012

Have to stay strong, nobody can do this for me. Thank you!

Debra, Think of you often and wish I could come and give you a big Hug. Best Wishes for you Chemo.

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by leenova54 19 May 2012

Thank you, more consultations with the doctor on the 30th and then on the June 5th we see what they will do to check out a thing the scan showed in my head.

Debra, I have not been on cute for a while but today checked in to get an update on your progress. You are in my thoughts daily, and such an inspiration to all. Keep fighting this dreadful thing miracles do happen. Hugs Sally

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by leenova54 19 May 2012

I am doing pretty good, keeping myself busy with house work and all the appointments.

Dear Debra, just to let you know that you are always in my thoughts and prayers. You are a fighter and an inspiration to me. I'm also praying for a miracle for you. Love and hugs, Yoriko

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by leenova54 17 May 2012

Thank you Yoriko, you are so kind to think of me when you have had so many problems of your own. I hope things are looking better for you!

Dear Debra: You are always in my prayers. Keep up your positive attitude and I know you are fighting with all your might. You are truly a tower of strength. God bless you for all you have done and I pray he blesses You with a Miracle. We are all praying for you.
Warmest of Hugs
Jerrib

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by leenova54 17 May 2012

Thank you Jerri, I don't care what the doctors say, no way can I be as sick as they think and feel the way I do! I am planning for another 4 years but I'll take 3!

by bowlds 18 May 2012

Drs. don't know when or if you will die of this, they only know the odds and averages, has nothing to do with set in stone fact in your case.

Dear Debra, I am praying for you and your family for the days ahead. Like jrob, I too believe in miracles and I am still praying for the dear Lord to give one to you! God has the Power to do what doctors at at a loss to explain..everyday! You are on my mind daily! SO my prayers for you are frequent and fervent! Hugs from me to you! And I am heartened by your courage to go further with more chemo...Trust in Him!! He will lead you to the right choices> xoxoro

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by leenova54 17 May 2012

Thank you, I plan on fighting for my life for as long as possible, I am in some pain right now but only because I have been so busy I haven't gotten much rest. Doing great though!

Debra, you are so kind hearted and always thinking of others. Please know that I will continue my prayers for you.

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by leenova54 17 May 2012

Thank you!

My dear Debra, you are in my prayers everyday. All I can say: Keep strong, and pray for only one day at a time. Love You Hugs Marie

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by leenova54 14 May 2012

I take each day as it comes and thank my doctor for being honest with me and finding pain killers that make me feel well enough to be out and about.

Debra, you are an inspiration for me. My heart just aches for you and your family, and I will pray for your continued strength so you can enjoy the life you are fighting so hard to keep. Some people teach us by their fine example, how to live, and you, our dear friend, are teaching us how to fight the battle of life too. We love you, even though we have never actually met, and we will be here for you. You inspire all of us - XOXOXO Jan We will keep praying for a miracle - because we know they do happen! Hugs, Jan

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by leenova54 14 May 2012

Thank you for such beautiful words. I only hope I can inspire others to fight each day whatever brings them troubles. We all have our own issues.

Debra, you are an inspiration for me. My heart just aches for you and your family, and I will pray for your continued strength so you can enjoy the life you are fighting so hard to keep. Some people teach us by their fine example, how to live, and you, our dear friend, are teaching us how to fight the battle of life too. We love you, even though we have never actually met, and we will be here for you. You inspire all of us - XOXOXO Jan

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Debra, I'm still pulling for you dear friend. My prayers have not ceased on your behalf and I will not stop praying for a miracle for you.;)

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by leenova54 14 May 2012

I am fighting in hopes of being here in 4 years but will be happy with 3. In just over 4 my life insurance runs out and I want my dear husband to be able to collect some money to get him through his time left.

Debra, I don't have words to say how much my heart aches for you and your family but know that prayers are being sent to you each day. God bless you and your family. Love and Blessings Judy aka Nana

ear sweet Debra I am thinking of you and keeping you in my prayers we all love you and we are all praying for you keep strong deer and trust in God he knows what he is doing and will take care of you
Love and hugs LenaMae

Such sad news, I read your post and have a sence of down guard day, please keep your spirit up! Give noni a try you got nothing to loose and lot to gain, i whish i could send you a gallon but agricultures does not allow it. My friend was very sick, after drinking noni for a year,3x a day one onze, she started to get better, now days she is cancer free and no more chemo, I know she buys it from an internet site, and the company is a hawaii, it is not cheap i think is 80 dollars / gallon, but that last you for a very long time the formula is 16onzes of noni juice, 12 of honey and 12 of molasses, add cinnamon for taste. i know two person getting better with this, but do not take my word, do your own reseach. God gives you comfort.

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by cfidl 28 May 2012

I love noni juice! I will attest that it has healing powers. I called it my happy juice and if it were in the budget(embroidery comes first) I would drink it daily! Just an ounce a day.

May God be with you and may you find the strength to continue to fight. You are in my thoughts and prayers every day, even when I don't always write and tell you. I know I should, but I also know what you are facing, as anyone who has had cancer can also understand what you are going through, and sometimes I cannot find the words of comfort that I feel I should say, but which sound so empty and so little coming from my mind.
If I could perform a miracle I would heal you immediately, but all I can do is pray, with all my heart, for that a miracle to be granted and for you and your loving family to be relieved of this terrible suffering.
I am with you always and I send you my Special Angels to watch over you and remind you that you are always in my prayers. Meganne

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by leenova54 13 May 2012

Thank you Meganne, you always find the right words. I wish the same for you and everyone suffering from this horrid disease, it's unfair for anyone to suffer especially the children, I ache for families with children in pain, I couldn't bare to see my children in pain. Hugs, Debra

HI Debra,
Sending up prayers for you to gain strength & have faith.

You are in my prayers, my heart is breaking.

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by leenova54 12 May 2012

Thank you.

I have been reading all the responses cuties have posted since you posted this update. This news has left me grasping for words which rarely happens. I echo all the previous postings by cuties. Praying and thinking of you. I hope God eases your pain and changes his mind about your illness to let you remain here with us for a very long time.

Marcelle

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by leenova54 12 May 2012

I know, I don't know what to think but I will go one day at a time.

I hope you had the time to go flea marketing.
Thinking of you.
Cathy

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by leenova54 12 May 2012

Oh, I did, it was nice, not too hot, not to cold, a little breeze and didn't spend too much money.

by bowlds 12 May 2012

Good, I'm glad you made time for that on a nice day.

So very sad to read this. I know that the Doctors have been so honest with you and admire them for that. BUT it is very hard for you and your family to know that truth. The word "admire" does not even begin to cover what I think about your strength and courage !! May you teach us all a lesson when our time comes. Hope that there are more good than bad days and I will think of you often during the days that come and at night when I am awake. I am a retired Nursing sister and so understand a little of what happens. Keep strong my friend.

Dear Debra,
You are always in my prayers!
Love and hugs Bev

Dear Debra...There is no end till the end...being a hospice volenteer I know it is important to keep beleiving in God and how wonderful and good he is and he performs miracles every day. All you have to do other then fight the biggest battle in your life is show everyone you love them each and every day. They will keep their strength through your strength. May God wrap his arms around you and keep you strong.
Hugs Joann

Thank you so much everyone. I am not up to posting one each of your responses, my tremors have gotten worse when I type and my fingers jump around so much now. But I will be on and looking in.

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by bevintex 11 May 2012

We will all be here for you
Bev

by leenova54 11 May 2012

Thanks, I may need you all!

by shirlener88 12 May 2012

Do only what you can my dear - we love and adore you. I so wished that we could be there to help you now - do you have anyone from Hospice or a caregiver to assist you - other than you DH?

by leenova54 12 May 2012

Don't need any help, still getting around quite well. Considering the flea market today or Thursday. Thursday is less crowded. Thanks for asking!

Hello darling Debra,

I have just seen this post and am so filled with compassion. To hear and read of your fight and your strength of spirit is just inspirational. May God envelope you with His loving care, embrace you with His loving arms and hold you in the palm of His hand.

As you have said you aren't ready to give up yet, only you and God will know the time to do this. Keep coming on here and let us know how you are doing. Sending prayers, love and support Chris

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Dear Debra, I think of you so often...and I am sad to hear the news. Just to let you know you are in my prayers. Stay strong my friend. Love and hugs, Yoriko

Stay strong. Hugs and prayers and may God protect you. Love &hugs
Elizabeth

Debra So very sorry to hear this. You are an inspiration. You are in my prayers.Stella

Hello Deb, sorry to hear about this said news. We will respect your wishes about sending gifs and cards, but will keep you in our prayers. And like said, if there is anything we can do to help you in any way, let us know. Hugs Linda

Hi Deb.. I am still praying for you and the family. You are strong and trust God. He is there with you. You have a lot of prayers and support going on here so God has to hear us sing your song. One day at a time... You have a lot of people who love you.
Gods gift is that you can not relive the past.. The future is uncertain... Live for today that is why he calls it the present. We are here for you..Suzanne

Dear Debra, So sorry to hear your latest news but I am thinking of you and sending you and your family my very best wishes and prayers. Juanita

WE ARE ALL THERE WITH YOU TO HUG AND GIVE YOU STRENGTH. XXX
Hugs Pam.

Dear Debra everything has already been said. Just wanted to let you know that there is another person praying for you to have the strength for whatever you decide to do. My thoughts are with you every day. Hugs my dear. Angie

Debra, my prayers and thoughts are with you and your family. I know how difficult this is since I have gone through this with my dear friend this past summer. She would fight to the bitter end and she did that with all her might. I was by her side for months as her evening hospice caregiver. I will be by your side right here on cute. Love and Hugs. I would put her to bed with the OUR FATHER and then we would hug and I would say "Jesus keep us safe this night" AMEN.
Cindy B.

Debra you are always a inspiration. You are in my prayers.

MY PRAYERS ARE WITH YOU.THIS IS A VERY DIFFICULATE EMAIL TO ANSWER.I WONT TO SAY FROM THE BOTTEM OF MY HEART MAY GOD WRAP HIS ARMES AROUND YOU KEEP YOU PAINE FREE.MAY HE WRAP HIS AREMES AROUND YOUR FAMILEY AND GIVE THEM STRANGTH.KEEP ON DOING THE THINGS YOU LOVE TO DO.ENJOY,LOVE LAUGHF...LOV LUCY

Diffidently not the kind of report you wanted to hear. Only you know your own strength and will know when you have had enough. Sending you Prayers of Hope.

Dear Debra, you have been such an inspiration to all us cuties and we love you very much. Life is what we all make of it. You have a fabulous network of family and friends to support you through your harder hours and you also have the strength and courage to enjoy your passions when you are able. Continue to tackle each day with the same positive attitude as you always have. My thoughts and prayers are always with you and your loving family. LOL and a BIG hug-Barb.

Dear Debra - my thoughts are with you. There's a Big Warm Aussie Hug of comfort and friendship heading straight your way from DownUnder.
Much love - AlmaG.

Thank you all for your wonderful words and thoughts, they are so appreciated! I am going to keep going on as I have!

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by shirlener88 10 May 2012

GOOD for you dear.

by devon 10 May 2012

I am glad too.

Prayers, love and hugs for you, dear Debra.
Lidia

Dear Debra, keep up that fighting spirit and stay strong. Sending you heaps of hugs at this trying time. Love Marg

Sending prayers still your way, Debra, for the Lord's intervention and eradication of this ghastly disease from your body. Your determination, I admire greatly. I know it has to be difficult to stay positive, but please continue to try. Percentages are just guesses, and your guess is as good as theirs! Go by how you feel in making decisions, and strive to get as much pleasure as possible in each new day! None of us, healthy or not, know what life holds in store, nor how many days we have left. All of us should welcome each one, and enjoy it to whatever extent we possibly can! I am sure you are doing just that!
My prayers remain steadfast for strength for you and relief from your pain as you continue the chemo.
Hugs, and more hugs for the days ahead!!
Angel

Receive all our love, God Bless you.

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Debra, I am so sorry to hear this news. You are a very strong women. Please thing of yourself & do the things that you would like. I will keep you in my prayers. Arlene

Oh Deb,I can't say anything that has not been said but i will pray and ask God to help you as you pass through the stages hugs and prayers carolyn

Thinking of you all. Jan

Dear Debra. You are such a brave and strong woman. You are always in our thoughts and prayers. Keep the spirit high.

Pray that God will be with you, and heal you if it is his will. Will be praying for you.

Debra, I too am so sorry to hear the lastest news. I will contunie to lift you and your family up in prayer. May you feel God's loving arms around you, holding you tight and getting you through this illness. As many Cuties have said we are here for you in whatever way you need us. Hugs, Judy

Keep your spirits up (I know - easier said than done). You have one of the biggest support groups anyone could wish for. One day at a time. Do whatever you can or want to. We will keep hoping you can find the right treatment to overcome this.

Debra, what a big heart you have - always thinking of everyone else - I love and adore you and you have never been out of my prayers from the very 1st posting you made on CUTE - then as time passed with the last few months hard times - so please know that I will continue. It will be hard - not to send you something to show our love for you - but as you asked - we will stop semding the gifts. I know how hard it is on you - when your Mother cries - but as other's have said - it is out of love for you, dear one. I will miss you - as I have most recently - but also understand - you have to do what you can - with your family and for them - in the time that you have with them. Come to the CUTE family - whenever you can. Give John a hug from me, too and ask him to give you one back from me.

dear Debra, we are here for you to support you and to admire your strenghth. If there are certain things you would love to do or love to see, I hope you can still do them together with your Hb and children. We know you try to fight, but if you can try to do and to enjoy the things you realy like to do also. As long as you are able to do them. My prayers are for you. Hope you will have a beautiful mother'sday together with your family.Thinking of you, hugs/love Gerry

Dear, dear Debra - please remain strong. You know all your Cute family love you. Lots of hugs Sarah.

Dear Debra bless you hard never give up enjoy you family and do give up miraculous happens i continue my prayers for you and love ones -----------------------HAPPY MOTHER DAY ---Love Maria

God Bless You. Will keep you in my prayers

I am sorry for your news. I marvel at your courage. I can see that you live each day as fully as you can, and continue to love with the same fullness. I know that you have a huge challenge to face. I will follow you in spirit and prayer.

Debra- Do not give up. Continue to think positive. I firmly believe that is half the battle. There are a lot of different chemo drugs out there. If one doesn't work - try another. I know this is not easy, but keep doing as much as you can for as long as you can. Just don't overdo. Keep in touch with us, even if it is just to say Hi. Remember you have thousands of thoughts and prayers reaching out for you every day. Hugs from Kansas. Mylinda-

Dear Debra, May God keep you close to His heart and carry you through all your trials and tribulatons. I pray for you, such sad news, that I feel totally lost for words to describe how much your freindship means to me.You are a friend far away and yet you are so close to my heart. I continue my prayers for you and your dear family.Love and best Flowers.

Dear Debra,
So sad to hear this news. I just want to say that I admire your strenght and determination in this battle,
I will continue to pray for you and your family.
Big hugs
Michelle

Dear Debra, you are such a strong woman, proceed as you do now, we admire you very much, you're in my thoughts, and I pray for you hugs Tanja**************

Well,
It's not good news, sounds like stage 4 Cancer. I had a neighbor go through this and Hospice at home.
Its not fun and yes I did cry and cry for this dear lady. I saw her children grow since I've lived in my same home since 1996. She was active till she could be no more and lived and participated in all she could do. Finally, she gave up on the chemo and the disease took its course. My heart goes out to you and may your days be filled with loved ones care
I can see your MOM suffering for you, her tears are of love for you-embrace her love. All things pass but love is eternal. Sorry, I'm not good at this sort of speak but I am sending hugs of comfort.

Dear Debra, We will continue to be here for you and we will continue to pray for you and your family. You are a very strong brave lady and an inspiration to all of us. Hugs,Mary

I'm so sorry about the news you received. I just don't even have words to express how much I wish you did not have to go thru all this. Take each day as it comes and do what makes you happy for that day. I'm sure this is very hard for your Mother. It's not easy to see your children suffer. I have a daughter with serious health issues and it is always as hard for me to see her go thru things as it is to go thru them myself, sometimes harder I think. It's hard to be so out of control, for both of you.
Hugs, Cathy

Dear Debra.....I don't even know what to say, as anything seems so inadequate to what you & your family is going through.....so just know we are here in whatever capacity you need us to be........
God Bless You & keep you & your family in his arms..
Vicki

wow you are a strong woman like Loralye said LIVE & ENJOY & FIND PLEASURE WHEREVER YOU CAN

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by pldc 10 May 2012

oops I meant like sadp said, I'm sorry for double posting but I can't help it I feel like I should have better words to share with you.

Oh Debra I am sew sorry to hear this news, don't dispair live your life to very best you can & try to be happy & who knows what the future will hold, its like our weather it can change in a day! I know the chemo sucks but it helps in the end I will continue to pray for you & your family! Hugs Loralye

Oh my Dear, I just sat and cried, and I realized you are a much stronger person than I am. Thank you for the update and I am still keeping you in my prayers. Stay the strong roll model you are for us all, hugs and tears, S*

Sending big hugs and prayers your way!!!!!

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Bless you, Debra!! Keep your chin up and don't give up - you are a strong individual - you do what you think is best and stay strong! We love you!! Hugs, Laura*

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