Yesterday was really a rough day. We spent 6 hours in the emergency room with a friend, who then had to be transported down to Denver. What made it especially hard was this was the same emergency room where Ben had been taken, and where we had to say goodbye to him. Where they told us he didn't make it. The shock of all that, of him dying, so closely tied to that hospital, being there again, pretty much just hit us hard. The reality is tough to take. My heart is aching today. I really miss my Benny.
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318469I am so sorry you are having to go through these '1st' when everything is still so new and raw for you. As you face them...just remember you are not alone; it may seem like it. All of us are with you in spirit and God is with you walking, holding and carrying you at these difficult times.
35301Oh! my dear Jan, hugs and thoughts of love being sent across the oceans to you and Willie and your family. God bless you in helping this friend and we all know how much you miss your beloved Ben. Memories linger, love Chris
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158717Jan, this situation had to bring back those painful memories. I am so sorry. Sending loving hugs your way for more happier days. It is inevitable that often these memories will surface, but try to push them away with the Ben's smiles and remembering the fun times you and Willie shared with him! I know the days that dredge up the pain are tough, but Ben knows how much you loved and cared for him! Smile, when you think of that!
Hugs to you each day!
Angel
12500IT is so difficult to go back to that moment in time. Places things and smells are very powerful for bringing up memories. Take it one day at a time. Suzanne
111382The reality of the loss comes in bits and pieces and grief can strike any time, any place, any reminder. My sweet MIL had to sit in the room where she heartd of her husband's death to hear of my husband's death, and the waiting was awful for her. Today may you see some beauty or feel some joy to know that life has gone on after losing Ben.
66911Bless you Jan and Willie through the difficult days. Big cyber Hugs!
173694I can imagine that was so difficult, my hugs and prayers for you.
743302Love & prayers surrounding you! Bless you for staying with that friend even though it hurt you so much. But the good memories of Ben will come to the front more & more. You will always miss him, but will remember his smile, laugh & love more each day. Love to you from another "cutie."
35675Yes, I can understand the difficult moments you were having. Sending you both a bug hug and pray for you all to carry this pain. Take care. Take to us about Ben, share it, It will help. We are your family you know.
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360646360646Sometimes when people see Willie and me, without Ben, they start crying. Then we cry too. Ben had a huge impact on people.
59631What a special boy he was. Thinking of you Jan. Hugs sarah
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255054I am so sorry that brought it all back to the surface for you. Losing a child is the worst possible heartache.
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by hightechgrammy
04 Aug 2014
I'm thinking it is just as hard as I ever could imagine. It hurts like hitting a brick wall.
29237Ben at Wall Drugstore, South Dakota. We found this wonderful Music machine and of course, Ben LOVED it! We fed it as many quarters as Ben wanted. What a delight it was!
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59631Sending hugs and prayers to you. We all miss him too. He is with you Jan. I am sure whenever you think of him, its his way of saying I love you and I am all right.
Hugs.
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30656Hugs dear Jan. My heart aches with yours. Prayers continue for you and your DH
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