by sebsews 01 May 2015

Dear Cuties, Many thanks to Cuties who have followed me through the last several months of happiness and sadness. It has been a tough road. I find peace through my family, friends, faith and of course Cuties. Today is our anniversary and I want to share my thoughts to my "Blackie" Picture was taken on our wedding day 33 years ago.

Forever and 2 Days
Today's The Day. 5/1/2015 Our 33rd Anniversary.
Oh, Blackie. I wonder how you're feeling on what would've been such a wonderful day. Instead, it's a very sad day. I feel as though I want to cry, or at least should cry, and I will cry. My heart will feel as heavy as it has ever been. Oh, how I wish that I could see you again. I miss your notes signed "I love you Forever and 2 days.” I think of the place where we met. I wish I could bring you back. I wonder what gifts we would've given each other today. I wouldn't have cared what you would've gotten me, so long as it came from you. I loved it when you spell out my name, Suzz. I remember the way you used to make me smile. You still make me do that. Blackie, I remember how much I loved your name. Cherished it. I still love it so much. I remember that our song was "If" by Bread and later we found the song "Look at Us" by Vince Gill. Both of those songs remind me of you. Remembering our memories makes me smile. And even though I still miss you so much, Blackie, I know that you're at peace. On our wedding day you told me "I love you forever and 2 days".
I love you, Blackie, Forever and 2 days, Suzz

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by crazystitcher 02 May 2015

Thanks for sharing this treasured day with us; let that wonderful love keep giving you the strength and comfort you need to cope with life's challenges; wishing you many reasons to smile.

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sebsews by sebsews 06 May 2015

I did have many smiles today remembering my dear blackie. thank you for your beautiful comment.

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by noah 02 May 2015

May you be at peace today and forever and 2 days hugs from my heart to yours carolyn xx

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sebsews by sebsews 06 May 2015

thank you so much Carolyn, for your kind words. and yes the day was very peaceful for me.

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by gerryb 02 May 2015

Happy memories that become sweetier each year. Thank you for sharing with us & know WE are thinking of you!

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sebsews by sebsews 06 May 2015

thank you and I know that you and the rest of the cuties are thinking of me

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by graceandham 02 May 2015

Keep celebrating each year - find quiet ways to pause and remember, looking through the wedding pictures, calling a friend who remembers him, thanking God for putting him in your life in your prayer time, eventually dining out in a pretty dress at your favorite place or playing "your" song. God bless.

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sebsews by sebsews 06 May 2015

oh yes I will celebrate our anniversary every year. thank you for your kind words, Suzanna

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by airyfairy 01 May 2015

What a wonderful tribute to your husband. Thank you for sharing your story. Hugs Sarah

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sebsews by sebsews 02 May 2015

Thank you and I know you and other cuties comments are from the heart. Hugs Suzanna

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by pldc 01 May 2015

I agree with Pam I am sure he is also saying that he still loves you forever and 2 days. He will always be in your heart........I wish I had the words to comfort you ........Hugs & prayers for you

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sebsews by sebsews 02 May 2015

Your words did comfort me, thank you.

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by pacmp 01 May 2015

Beautiful love story! Love is forever, Blackie may not be in this life but he is still watching over you from the hereafter still calling you his Suzz. Sometimes the veil to the afterlife can seem very thin, so continue to talk to him. Take time to laugh and cry today, as it will be a bittersweet day, as you are thankful he is at peace, but missing him so very deeply. I know this sweet tribute you shared with us will be also be known by him. Maybe let him know that you will celebrate this special anniversary, for the both of you until you can be together again when he will reassure you that he was truly there with you, through each of those special days, just from the other side, and that he was also longing for you to be there with him but only once your journey here on earth was complete. I am sure he is also saying that he still loves you forever and 2 days. ((Hugs)) Pam

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sebsews by sebsews 02 May 2015

Beautiful words from you, Thank you. His spirit is always with me. He comes to me in my dreams and I know he awaits me for when my journey is complete. Hugs to you, Suzanna

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by cfidl 01 May 2015

Wow! Thank you for sharing your wonderful story.

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sebsews by sebsews 02 May 2015

I knew you and the rest of my special friends "Cuties" would understand and be touched by our life.

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by joansatx 01 May 2015

Oh, oh, oh! Such beauty...and a hug from afar, Joan

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sebsews by sebsews 02 May 2015

Thank you for your beautiful comment. and for the hug, Suzanna

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by anangel 01 May 2015

Thanks for sharing your beautiful love story, Suzanna! Blackie is looking down upon you, smiling, for sure, with pure adoration still! Congratulations to both of you for having made such lovely memories together!! Those will sustain you forever and help keep your heart uplifted!!
Hugs, Angel

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sebsews by sebsews 02 May 2015

That is beautiful "pure adoration" and true. Thank you so much. Hugs, Suzanna

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by dragonflyer 01 May 2015

Oh, Suzanna, what a beautiful journey you have taken me on...a wonderful testament to the love you shared with your dearest Blackie. Thank you for sharing this most precious part of your life with us.

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sebsews by sebsews 02 May 2015

Yes precious moments. I posted because I know Cuties understand and care. Thank you

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by lbrow 01 May 2015

Suzanna having been down this same road many years ago I know the sweet and sad nostalgia that wraps round you especially on what were special days for you. I continue to have them although it has been 25+ yes since Tom died and I have remarried. He will always be with you no matter how old you grow, the memories remain and will be there when you need them most. Much love/Lillian

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sebsews by sebsews 02 May 2015

It has been a tough road but I know I he will be with me all the way forward. Thank you so much for sharing with me.

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by 02kar Moderator 01 May 2015

You have given the most beautiful testimony a spouse can give. Please know that we Cuties are holding you in a warm loving cyber hug for as long as you need it.

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sebsews by sebsews 01 May 2015

Thank you so much for your kind words. I have always known that cuties have my back.

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by jrob Moderator 01 May 2015

Oh, my how you have been blessed to share this journey with a man you so obviously loved and who loved you so dearly. Use this love as a vehicle to steadily, slowly drive you through each hard day and on the easy ones, take a fast joy ride with the top down. Hugs and prayers for you.

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sebsews by sebsews edited 01 May 2015

Our life together was really quite a ride. Our love for each other is unforgettable. Thank you for keeping up with me, I will be someday be traveling that fast lane with Blackie watching over me.

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by gerryvb edited 01 May 2015

what a beautiful picture, I think you will have many beautiful memories to cherish.....and he will always have that special place in your heart, and watch over you as a guardian angel. A special hug for you on this special day, hope the happy memories can alleviate the sad feelings....

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sebsews by sebsews 01 May 2015

It has been a very different day, lots of smiles on my face and many tears too. As a gift to us I took the picture to be reframed. He is my guardian angel.

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by pennifold 01 May 2015

What a wonderful testament to such a strong love and journey through life Suzanna. I was so moved by your beautiful post. May God continue to bless you. You obviously have so many wonderful memories to get you through the sad times. Love Chris

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sebsews by sebsews 01 May 2015

Yes the memories will always remain. Thank you Chris for your comment.

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by asterixsew Moderator 01 May 2015

I am sure that today is a very difficult one for you so have a cyber hug. Keep your super memories as you sound to have had a wonderful - almost 33 years of marriage

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sebsews by sebsews 01 May 2015

Thanks for the very much needed cyber hug. All good years.

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by tfk 01 May 2015

This is so touching Suzz....i am speechless!
I can just say 1 thing......you both have been very lucky :)

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sebsews by sebsews 01 May 2015

Oh yes Lucky in Love

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