UPDATE BELOW-Suicide<br /><br />

Such an ugly word-Shameful-Lost-without Hope-Robber-Thief<br /><br />
My husbands brother called about 5 pm yesterday and told my husband, his 17 year old grandson killed himself. We are still reeling in shock.<br /><br />
I say these words at the top because it is an ugly word to hear. It is a shame, they won't turn to someone for help. It is so sad, that they feel so lost, that they think there is no other way. They must feel there is no hope, for better things or not thinking whatever they are going through, time will change and they would get through .<br /><br />
Cody was...God it is hard to say WAS....a straight A senior in high school. He was.. the only son of my husbands niece and he had...there goes that past tense again...two older sisters. Seems like he had a bright future and was robbed by this ugly word..Suicide<br /><br />
It comes like a thief. It surprises the family who weren't watchful, as they had no signs. It steals his life of what was, of what could have been. You wonder how this thief got into this brilliant boy, warping his mind, making him believe his life was worthless. <br /><br />
The victim of this suicide can't have thought of what he leaves behind. How it pains his family to lose a child they dearly love, how his sisters have no brother to interact with, his mom no son to hold dear against her.<br /><br />
Nor has he thought of the grandmother that loved him with all her being, had spent time with him the night before and who is was going somewhere with that very night, found him in such a horrible state. I don't know how she will ever get that scene out of her mind.<br /><br />
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You know what this family needs without me asking. I know Cuties have always held each other up.<br /><br />
Cody was not on drugs. He had problems with a girlfriend. That is the only answer they can come up with. The girl was very controlling, from what my sister-in-law, his grandmother, said. I'm not laying the blame on her. I'm just saying there is evil in this world and the devil will take/rob/steal/invade anyone's mind.<br /><br />
Sorry to bring such sad news. I really don't know why I'm posting. I know people are aware of suicide, especially in the young, but no one ever thinks it can touch their family. <br /><br />
Toogie
UPDATE- Thank you so much for these words of condolence and comfort, however, we just got an answer (we hope) to part of our prayers....the WHY.....Investigators have determined, after interviewing the immediate family, the grandmother that discovered him, and the scene, that it was an unfortunate ACCIDENT.
This is somehow more acceptable, for those knowing Cody, and somehow comforting (God's way of answers for us), to know he didn't want to do this, on purpose. And we were told the weapon used, which was a muzzle loader, was not a gun one would use for suicide. There were other guns in the house, as it is a hunting family.
This makes more sense to us.
He had plans for the day today. He was going hunting, with his daddy this morning, and tonight was going somewhere,with his girlfriend and his grandparents. He had been painting at his grandparents' house the day before and they made plans for this outing then. He had a long conversation with an uncle, after 1/2 day of school and nothing seemed unusual. He had been texting and everything showed normal.
Even though it is still such a tragic loss/shock, it somehow (if any of this makes sense) lessens the weight, pain of this unbearable tragedy. It is somehow easier (and that's not the right word, nothing about this is easy) to accept.