Update on my health issue. I am so nervous about my tumour growth, I am just sort of wandering around lost. I start something then leave & forget I have started it. I went to bed early last night & stayed up watching Netflix in bed till midnight. No wonder I slept until 10:45 this morning. I have to snap out of this & I figure if I can take my mind off things by sewing then maybe I can get back to normal. I have anxiety pains in my chest & they have not gone away since last night. I called the neurologist again this morning I have not gotten any MRI app't for next year & that made me so worried so finally I asked her if they were trying to get me in sooner...........she explained to me that I am on the watch list but it is ok & I should not worry it is not that bad, normally these take quite some time to grow & as long as there are no symptoms the Dr. is not overly concerned & that I should not be either. I am to watch for any significant changes but they are not expecting me to have any @ this time. I have to admit this does lessen the worry & I do feel better for having called her & building up my courage to ask the important questions. So often when told disconcerting news you forget everything & don't ask everything you want or need to know. I am thankful they gave me a direct phone number to call...........your prayers have brought me comfort & now I am getting peace of mind so thank you to all of you for everything. ~hugs Loralye~
Hugs, Angel
All your cute family here will gladly be a listening ear or a shoulder to cry on whenever you have the need. You are right; you are a VERY strong woman, who walks in her faith of her Savior, the Lord Jesus Christ. Please remember that your sharing your challenges here inspires so very many around this whole world, you are a blessing to me, in my life. When people can learn from the things that others go through, it at times will help them through their own difficult times or help them to continue to fight the good fight as they say, then there are times that the advice they read from others may help them to totally be able to bypass a difficult situation for themselves, because they had learned from others advice, what a blessing it is, in that life, when they are able to bypass those types of trials, or when they learn a coping trick from another, who had thought to share that advice. Sharing on line has the potential of reaching so many more people than in past generations. We are so very blessed even with the trials we are each facing.
Your doctors that you already go to are some of the best doctors for your medical condition, so there is no need to second guess their knowledge. Advice from specialists is worth their weight in gold, as you do not need to worry if the advice is good advice, or if it fits your particular situation. Satan wants to try to discourage you because he knows he can not make you doubt your faith. Letting him cause you stress, chest pain or panic attacks would only cause you harm. Though the afterlife is so much better than this life, we still are not to try to help ourselves into the grave, or to help dig our own graves either. We are not to just endure our trials and afflictions of this life, but to endure them well, which has been something I have been thinking a lot about recently. This life is a type of test. We all will go through various forms of testing and loss. How we choose to handle those situations will show our Heavenly Father what type of steward of his vineyard we would be. He does not want us to bury our talent or hide it away nor to hide our spiritual light under a bushel but to let it so shine forth before men that they will see his good works and glorify the Father which is in him. It is not just about making it from one minute or day to the next, but in figuring out how to still have joy and happiness in this life, despite those trials we go through. We can not say I will put off being happy until after I make it through all this. I will serve the less fortunate, once I am no longer having this trial. Tomorrow may not come, so we must do all we are able to do now, today.
You will want to get a small notebook and write down what the symptoms are that they in particular would attribute to the tumor getting larger, whether it would be loss of appetite, difficulty sleeping, too much sleeping, nausea, balance issues, chest pain, and palpitations, just whatever the conditions would be. Also have a page or two for you to write down questions as you think of them. Then every few weeks read through the symptom list and think about if you have had any of those things start up for you. Write down the date and how you are feeling and doing. Then leave it next to your bed so you will look again in a few more weeks. Then remember to bring the notebook with you to your appointments.
To help you pass your days and "endure them well" I hope you will add to your sewing routine to have uplifting music or inspirational talks on CD that you can listen to while stitching, which will give your spirit double uplift as you are stitching in your sewing room. Do things you love and create for your loved ones and the less fortunate or charity stitching you may do. When we go through difficult trials if we can still find ways to live and enjoy life and still find ways to put the teachings of Christ in our lives and refuse to go down the path that Satan tries to put before us, or refuse to become depressed or bitter with our situations and continue to reach out and lift one another in our life's journey finding ways to continue to live our lives in a Christ centered way, then come what may, we will have comfort from on high, and we will be blessed for the way we chose to try to live our lives. Hugs again dear friend, Pam