Today has been a long day for me. 3 yrs ago today ,later in the night I lost my beloved husband I never left his side that day as I watched him slowly slip away from me He died at home in his bed and it had been a long fight. I know he is at peace now and have peace myself but that doesn't mean that all the memories and loneliness are gone. Often I will read something and turn to where he sat to share and he is not there, or I fall asleep in my chair and will awaken and think "I must check on Ron" before I remember I don't have him anymore. Simply alone with all these memories tonight and needed to voice how I feel.Thanks for listening Lillian
Sure you miss Ron and especially on this date. We are humans with great love. I know what you mean about doing or thinking about things, then remembering, he is not here anymore. I used to have the phone off the hook, ready or sometimes already dialing my sister in laws number. When I would stop and realize, I felt I must be losing it. We spoke so often that I think it was normal to want to tell her something.
I know you are blessed with great memories of times with Ron. Hang on to those and try not to recall the sadder times, when he was so ill and helpless. Know that you always have a special place in my heart and others hearts, as well. I love you dearly-Toogie