You have my prayers going up as I type. Please know you are not alone. We are there with you with cyber hugs that we wish were real. And God is holding you in His arms too.

Positive thoughts for you

I know no words can truly help but do know you are in my prayers - do talk to your dear hubby as I believe he is with you especially today!! Loads of hugs and love, Laura

My widowed friend Sheila told me when I was widowed in 1999, "You are just a baby at this. You will get better at it." At that point I thought she was daft. But she was correct. Give yourself a little grace to fill today with memories that make you smile with joy AND the ones that bring tears. Tears are healing, just as remembering the happy times. Maybe next year you can plan a little special trip to honor the memories of your wonderful years together. Just a heads up, all commemorations may be difficult for this first year of your new life, his birthday, yours, Christmas, Thanksgiving, Veteran's Day if he was military, etc. It's mostly that you don't know how to be you without him being there with you. You are looking over your shoulder for him. This next few months can be preparation for the next good phase of your life, as you refine your definition of yourself and what your life can be. Today, you may wish to write down some of the memories you recall so that you can read them over in the future and smile without today's tears.