Oh Lillian, I keep telling myself that, just can't figure out the reason why so many women are forced to make this difficult decision and even more who don't get to choose. It is barbaric in this day and age, especially the tests leading up to the surgery, they are so cruel! And I feel like such a coward! They could do whatever they want to me as long as i'm under a general anaesthetic, but not cold turkey! Only comfort is knowing I'm not the only one to go through these procedures. Hugs n roses, dear friend, I value every one of my Cute friends' support. M

Thanks so much Barb. No was not at all what I expected, certainly came as a big shock and has really thrown me, that's for sure. Still, there are so many others far worse off than me. hnr, M

Thank you Michele, it is truly appreciated and very heart-warming. hnr, m

Thanks so much for your support, it is truly appreciated. hnr, M

Thank you so much Gerry, and isn't she just the most gorgeous little Angel.
hnr, M

Thank you so much, with the support of my QT friends it is easier to stay positive, even while being a little scared. hnr, M

Thank you so much, Jerrilyn, confused and angry is more like it.

My faith is strong so I place my life in His hands, what will be, will be.

But I am angry at a medical system that so often fails us.

While I was sitting in the waiting room, a heavily pregnant young woman came in and sat down, her DH? & her Mum? were with her.
I only heard part of the conversation with the staff member, but I understood she didn't have money to pay (up-front) for the necessary ultrasound, and she sat there crying and very distraught.

I so wanted to reach out and give her the money, but how could I give what I don't have.

It made me upset for her and quite angry. All I could do was empathise with her so I told her what i was facing and how much the doctor asked me to pay up-front, in the hopes that it would take her mind off her own problem, if only for a moment to help her calm down.
She stopped crying straight away and then both our prayers were answered as the staff lady came back and said if she would just come back to the desk, they would organise something so she could have her ultrasound.

So I know, He truly does listen when you believe.

I am truly lucky that I was able to work long enough to even buy a home, but it is no good to me if I'm not alive to enjoy it.
Besides Ray (DH) reminded me, we promised to have 30 years together, so I still have 26 to go and he just bought me a new exercise bike so i'd better stick around to use it!!! LOL!
hnr, M

Sorry not to reply before now, but sincere thanks for your wonderful support, it is truly appreciated. hnr, M

Thank you so much Sweet Letvia, I truly value you and the support you always give to everyone. Love you, hnr, M

I came home and jumped straight on the bike, did my best to date. I'll do a Scarlett O'Hara and think about it tomorrow. LOL!

OH Marji, I'm sorry if I confused you, it wasn't the same doctor who wanted my arms and legs to do the surgery. LOL!
But she sure scared me when she asked me that in such a forceful way. It really left no doubt in my mind what I NEED to do. I'll see the next surgeon on 27th October, hopefully she'll only want my left hand as payment! LOL!
Thanks so much for being here I love you too. hugs n roses, M

Thanks so much Cindy. Hnr, M

Thanks Teri, I just keep thinking:
"Seek and ye shall find" so I know He will guide me to make the right choices.
I am off to bed now, to sleep soundly in the comfort and loving support of all my dear friends and sisters here at Cute. hnr, M

Thanks so much Sue, I truly value the love and support from my Cute family. hnr, M

Thanks so much for your love and support, it is truly appreciated. hnr, M

Thanks Carla, your support is valued more than you will know.hnr, M

Thank you Emily. hnr, M

Ask away, it is my greatest pleasure to be able to share and help others if I can, but please no more full alphabets, for a while, LOL! hnr, M

Shirlene, as ever you have found the wonderful words of comfort that fill me with confidence, thank you dear friend. hnr, M

Your words are a great comfort and have hit right at the heart of my problems, Thanks so much Angie.
hnr, M

Thank you Tracey, they are appreciated more than you know. hnr, M

Thanks so much Carolyn, it sure is a comfort to come here and feel the love and support of my friends. hnr, M

Thank you so much, your support is the greatest comfort. hnr, M

Thank you Sarah, we come into the world without boobs and some of us are destined to go out the same way. Luck of the drawer!
I love the pic it would make a great design. hnr, M

fibroid tumor are usually benigne, so you will be fine, I had lots ot them before.Had them removed 14 years ago. Trust God.**

I empathise with anyone who has gone through this uncertainty, it is indeed a difficult thing to contend with and ultimately we all have to face it in our own way. thanks for you support. hnr, M

We'll have that cuppa one day. I may surprise you and actually drive down instead!!! LOL!