It seems your life is not different than mine, Mary. I've had lots of bad downs ones. I've been trying to keep my sanity by embroidering and digitizing. I also tried suicide 3 times and almost succeded my last time. I've been thinking a lot about that again...taking my youngest son with me...
No one can imagine what I'm going through now, I could write a book as it is too much to bear, and I dont want to ruin the happiness Cuties feel here. You were brave to have opened your heart, Mary...made me opened mine a little bit, thank you. I just pray God will give me strengh to "hang in there"...God bless you Mary.

Mary & Yoriko, thank you for talking about this problem!! It seems that a lot of us work through it with embroidery, crafts, quilts, etc. Somehow, holding something in your hand that you have made, wearing it and getting compliments, or giving it as a gift & getting a big smile, that relly helps. I know how you both feel about suicide, believe me. I thought about it not long ago, but figured I'd have to take my older kitties with me, because there's no one else to take care of them. But I looked into Dancer's eyes, and knew he wouldn't agree. He's 12, has congenital problems with his hips turned into arthritis, and he hurts sometimes. He walks like a little drunk, can't run like he used to, lost most of his teeth, but he's a happy kitty and by no means ready to give up. He just does what he can, no more. He made me feel bad. So I just do what I can, and if it's not what others expect, too bad. They don't walk in my shoes. It's so easy for others to say, "Well, just don't feel like that." But we DO feel like that. I'm here to say I understand, and will help in any way I can. Sometimes the best help is just knowing there are others out there who feel the same way, and understand why you feel that way, and will listen to you say the hard things you must say sometimes. I'll listen. It's hard to think of losing either one of you, but I will listen to and respect those words, because I know what it feels like to say them and mean it. I just want you to know I love you both. Marji

MM, please keep doing what you are doing - right now - as it seems to be working - if you keep doing what you are doing you will keep getting what you are getting. Make any sense? Maybe not, but please know - you didn't just happen upon the CUTE web site - you were guided here - for a reason - I believe that whole heartedly. You have opened our hearts here, too. Sounds to me like you have come to some new awareness about your and what you can do - keep doing it - it sure is nice to have you around us. I will continue to pray for you daily. Unconditional Love, Shirlene

My dear Mary... GOD has a plan for each of our lives... but you must know that Satan's goal in life is to kill, steal and destroy your very existance Anything that is not pure and good, cannot come from above. Hence, we can conclude that depression and negative thoughts are straight from the pit of hell. Not to diminish their presence... I too suffer GREATLY with depression, but the first goal is to recognize WHERE it comes from.... then we know how to take hold in battle.

I encourage you Mary that NOTHING can fill up that hole in your life other than the One that created you. Depression is a realistic feeling that no one other that the Devil himself places in you... but let me ask you this... do you believe GOD? Do you believe His Word? Do you TRUST Him? Then when Satan speaks to you, know that he is the master liar. Get into your bible and read what GOD says about Mary Moore... because NOTHING the Devil will whisper in your ear is anything like the truth.

I have been slammed on CUTE for speaking my religious beliefs, but I'm going to stick my neck out there again... the reason that Satan messes with you so much is that he knows the plans GOD has for you... The promise in Jeremiah 29:11 was to the Jewish people... those that have been grafted in through Jesus may claim these promises too...

Oh Mary my love, you are a mighty warrior... you are strong, you are courageous, you are loving... do not let a lie from a liar tell you ANYTHING other that that... GOD doesn't make trash... He doesn't make mistakes... He makes perfect creatures... it's believing the lies that set us apart from this perfection. You are MORE than a conquerer Mary... battle this depression with GOD's Word and His promises... NOTHING is impossible for those that believe... NOTHING.

I love you... xoxo my dear, dear friend...

I hope i have an answer for this, just cant stop crying now after reading all replies...

Hang in there guys we are all here to help each other. I am so glad to be a part of this very loving and caring family. Reading all the posts makes me feel not so alone. I too beleive god has a purpose for us. Lots of Love Lisa

Mary all I can say is that you are more brave than you realize. Don't go any where ok, we love you just the way you are, and here with us at Cute... yes FAMILY needs you.
Please take care hugs and love, Kerry

Don't we always feel we are going through it alone, it is suprising how many and who are going through the same thing.

MM it takes someone who has dealt with a problem personally to help another with the same problem. We tell people" I know how u feel, or I know what u r going through" but that is not true untill u have actually experienced the same thing. Bless U 4 trying to help another. I have found love, caring, God & being busy & not necessarily in that order is the key to it all. Stars 4 u 4 dealing with it & helping others. Much love Lillian my dear friend.

Mary and Yoriko, you have a caring and loving family here among the Cuties. We are here for you when you need us - just talk to us. My thoughts and prayers are with you both. Hugs and blessings. Shirley