Thanks...It's so hard to see some one who was always the strength in the family be so feeble..But I know that when that time comes, she will be going to a better place.

Thanks Shirlene.. Sometimes just being able to talk to others that are going through or have been through what a person is going through really helps. I guess when we go through something, we sometimes feel as tho no one else has ever been there, but then you come to your senses and realize that your just one of many. Thanks you for the kind words and prayers. I have totally accepted what is to come. Not that I want her to leave this world, but I know that in all truths, she really isn't in this world any more and would never want to stay here this way. One thing that she always told us was that when her quality of life and quantity of life didn't even out, to let her go.

Deanna, I pray for the best for your MIL..Knowing that our precious Lord is holding her hand makes the journey I'm taking with her so much easier. They day we got the final test results which told us that the chemo wasn't working anymore, was slowing it some, but not working enough and her health will not let her take a stronger chemo, we decided to not put her through any more agony. By this time she had become bed fast and to get her up was horrible for her. She is so scared of falling that she would cry each time we tried to get her up to sit in a chair.
As I said before, they always taught us to look for blessings. It was then that I saw the blessing with her illnesses. Although I wish that this had not been the ending for her life, I have to thank God that the Alzheimers will not let her know that she is dieing and that the cancer will not let her live through the ravages of the Alzheimers. I so hope that does not sound cold and cruel. It is not my choice for her. But I do have to see the blessing that she is not worried about death. God has his way of making our lives better if we take the time to see it. It may not have been the thing that we would have chosen, but we hopefully have the mind to see it. I know that with my daughter and grandkids moving back here was one of those blessings. When God closes one door, he opens another. I've taken care of Mom for 8 years and Dad for 5 before he passed. I am so used to filling my days with what ever they needed, even when I worked. I know their coming home to me is to fulfill those empty hours when her time to go to the Lord comes.
He is such an awesome God. So loving and so kind. I am so thankful that he is looking over us and guiding us in these times. And for all of the Cuties that are here for strength, for a shoulder to cry on, the encouragement, but most of all, for the prayers.

Thank you so very much... The prayers really keep me going through the days...

Thanks Lil... If I never recieve another blessing, I have my "Blessing Basket" filled just being with her. When she holds my hand, as I have hers so many times over the years, when I wipe the tears from her runny eyes, just as she has me. Even when I bathe her, feed her or any of the not so nice things one has to do, these things she has already done for me. I consider it a pleasure to give back to her all that she has given to me. I just hope that mine is with as much love as her's was. Thank you for your thoughts and prayers. You Cuteies are the Tops.

Thank you Jacqui....Her love has lifted me so many times in life and still today, even tho she may not remember from day to day, she still picks me up.

Gosh, I didn't know just how much easier it would be. They have only been coming for a week and the stress level is so much lower.