On a sad note this morning...My Bebe, oldest Pekingeseof the 2; 14 yr...

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by lflanders 09 Jun 2010 ( edited Jun 16'10 08:25 )

watch her gradually get worse. I have been fighting with myself since Christmas about what and when she needed to be carried to the vet. She has been eating good and still alert and wanting to be loved on up until a couple of days ago. I was hoping that it was a temp. thing and that she would regain some of her strength. I kept telling my son that she would let me know when she was ready to go. That moment came yesterday afternoon. I got up and bathed her this morning with her crying the whole time(she has never liked to be bathed). My son is coming to get her and take her to the Vet as soon as I can find one that will let me bring her back home and bury her. The Vets up here will not let you take a dog out of the office once they are put down. They cremate(sp?) them. I want her in my son's back yard where he will be until he passes away and I hope that happens only after I have been gone for a long long time! I cried all night last night and I can not quiy crying this morning! This wonderful little creature has been with me since the day she was born. I helped deliver the litter with the Vet. They were very preemie and I was told to take them home because there was nothing that could be done for them except to wait. Out of the 6, 4 of them lived. I fed them with eye-droppers for several weeks to help them get what they needed because they were not strong enough to suck and get nourishment that they had to have. Bebe was the only female out of the 6 and has the most gentle personality and she loves everyone. My heart is breaking and there is nothing else that can be done. I know it is time because when I bathed her, I really found out how much weight she has lost in the last 4 weeks. She shed tons of hair when I brushed her after the bath and she really looks frail. That does not keep me from hurting! Even though I have known since a couple of weeks before Christmas that she was going down-hill in a hurry, I am not prepared to let her go. She just walked in circles for a few minutes after her bath and layed down and went to sleep. It was an ordeal for her to get her bath. Oh, she did slap her food bowl with her paw and turned it over to let me know that she was hungry but before I could wash her bowl and get it back to her, she was fast asleep.

Hey, I just stopped and called a Vet close to me and was told that I could take her home and bury her at home. I could not stand the thought of them keeping her and her not being buried at home. My son can not carry her today so she will be with me another day. He is on a service call North of Atlanta and his next call is in the opposite direction from where I am. She will be here with me another day/night. Thanks for letting me vent to all of you. I am home alone all of the time and in a strange town(to me) with none of my friends close by. Hugs, Linda

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by psssst 09 Jun 2010

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I am sorry to hear this. I know the love and pain you are feeling right now. It is so hard to let go and say goodbye to someone we have loved for so long. God be with you

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by lflanders 10 Jun 2010

The 4 of the 6 that lived were the tinest babies I had ever seen. They were very preemie and the Vet told me they would not make it. I nursed those babies for over a month with an eyedropper to get them the food they need to stay alive. They were not strong enough to suck mommie. I took care of the babies and my Vet/Friend took care of the mommie. We did lose the 1st born and the last born the 1st day and Bebe was the only female of the litter. The 3 boys have been gone for some time but My little girl has hung in there through my illness and she has had this cancer for over 4 years now. It has only grown into huge proportions in the last few months. She is a fighter! She hung on for me and watched over me when I nearly died 6 yrs ago. She made life bearable for me during the almost year that I was flat on my back. It is now time for me to take care of her and do what is best for my angel. My son kept her while I was in the nursing home and she adores him. She grew up with him around for many years! She senses the changes in him since his Heart Attack and she has not tried to play with him at all since that day. She is very quiet and loving when he is around. They are very smart little creatures.

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by shirlener88 09 Jun 2010

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I will be praying for you Linda!

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by dgarner 09 Jun 2010

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I also live in Georgia, and I just sent you a private message.
Blessings,
Diane

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by asterixsew 09 Jun 2010

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Linda thinking of you at this sad time. Remember the good times that you had together

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by haydebug 09 Jun 2010

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Linda, I was in your place a month ago, I took my female pom in to the Vet thinking she had a kidney stone that needed removed. (She was 16yr old. My College roommates gave her to me when she was 1 1/2 old.) When they did the surgery the next morning, they realized it was cancer. So at that time he recommended her put down because as soon as the cancer was exposed to air it spreads rapidly. My husband was the one to make the decision to put her down. He knew I could not! I know it was for the best. I know that she had to be in pain even though she never showed it. She was just a happy little dog. My Husband picked her up after she was put down. I was able to say my good bye, and we buried her on the farm where we live. My Heart goes out to you! Big Hug!

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by pennifold 09 Jun 2010

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Oh! my Linda, what grief you are having and I feel it all. I am crying just reading your post. I just love reading about your beloved dogs. They have been with you so long and they are your family - I know what it's like with Bella here next to me all day. She is now 11 and her arthritis is under control I went to the Vet yesterday and they are very pleased with her. She is on Mobic 1/4 tablet daily and it's helping.

I took our other dog home after she was put down and we buried her in our back yard at Valentine. I think it's comforting to know that they are with you. Just think of all the good times and I pray that you have lots of pictures of her. Bebe at least will be out of pain soon. Love to you and big hugs and cuddles.

Chris

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by manami 09 Jun 2010

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Dear Linda,
My heart goes out to you. I think of you always, my friend. You are in my thoughts and prayers in this difficult time. I love you, Yoriko

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by holly12 10 Jun 2010

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I understand what you are saying an animal becomes a family member and when you have to decide to put them down(even though we know we should) it is one of the hardest things in the world. I really feel for you. If you notice I come down as Holly 12 well that was my girl who live 12 yrs. and died from diabetes. Had a heart attack in my kitchen. I will be thinking of you. Take Care. Arlene

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by turtleowl 10 Jun 2010

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Glad you will be able to bring her home. Molly(lab-setter mix), Lindsay and her daughter Bitsy(Yorkies) all have trees growing in our backyard which were planted over them when we had to say good-bye. They are still missed but it is nice to see the trees growing as each year goes by and are something beautiful as a rememberance.

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by mary51 10 Jun 2010

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I am so sorry I know how you must feel. I had a German Shepherd his name was Gent, and he really was a gentelman, we loved him and he was part of our family, we had to put him to sleep, bone cancer, it was hard for him to stand up to eat, he was in pain, Do dogs go to heaven my Gent was sooo sweet.

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by lflanders 10 Jun 2010

Google Rainbow Bridge and read the wonderful poem about where our Pets/Furbaby family/our gentle little ones, go afterwards. You can find so many beautiful sayings and poems about our beloved Pets. I warn you though, you will end up bawling if you have ever had a wonderful furbaby that you loved and lost. By the time I found a Vet that would let me bring her home afterwards, my son's job had taken him north of Atlanta and he did not get back in time to carry her. I guess I will just have to see what today brings. The Lord will look after her because she has spent all of her life being an angel and trying to look after me when I was so sick several yrs ago. My gentle angel spent about 2 months after I got out the Nursing home standing guard over and would not even let my best friends in the house. /she had to go and live with my son for 8 months and he brought her home to me the day after I got home. She was so terrified that I was going to have to leave her again because she WAS with me when they came and got me in the ambulance and she was not going to let anyone take me away again. Let me remind you that this was/is the most gentle angel in the world, but for a few weeks she guarded me with her life. She WAS NOT going to let anyone take me away again. She adores my son and there was no problem with him keeping her but she was and is a Mama's girl. She snarled and tried to bite anyone that came in the house until she was sure that I was not going to leave her again. Dynamite comes in small packages and she meant that she was not going to let anyone take me away again. That was 6 yrs ago and she has stood watch over me every since then although she quickly got back to being her gentle self as soon as she was sure that I was not going to leave her again. Most dogs are very sensitive and they know when something is not right. The night I fell and could not get up(before surgery) she stood on my chest all night at alert. When my neighbor, let the police and the ambulance driver into the house, she stood them off for a few minutes until I talked to her and she let my neighbor put her in the kitchen with the child gate up and watched them carry me away. My son came and got her that day and she stayed with him for the 9 months I was gone.(1 month in hospital and 8 months in the nursing home. My son brought her to see me once at the home and she was terrified. I asked him not bring her back again until I went home. Now it is my turn to make life easier for her and let her go to Rainbow Bridge.

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by lbrow 10 Jun 2010

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Linda my heart aches for you. If I could I would be there with you. My Aunt in Macon, when her cat died they placed her in a corner of her garden & placed a statue of St. Frances of Assissi about 2 feet tall to mark the grave site. I know how you will miss her but you will always carry her in your heart. God Bless, you did all you could & she has given you so much love , joy & pleasure for the past 14 yrs. /((((()))))s for you. Lillian

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by lflanders 10 Jun 2010

Thanks Lillian. It did not happen yesterday so I am sitting here crying for her. She was hurting so bad yesterday that I finally gave her an Aleave. I did not have a bufferine and they can not have aspirin so she got a strong aleave. She got up after a good nap from the Aleave and was walking much easier and fussed at me for awhile. I fixed her 2 hamburgers, cut them up into tiny pieces, put a sm amt of catsup and mayo on them and she ate like there way no tomorrow. She loves her hamburgers as well as her steaks but she does not get very many hmbs because of the extra fat content in them. I figured that it could not hurt too much at this point. She also loves her veggies but the baby, Patty will take the veggies out of her bowl and put them on the floor. She eats no veggies. Bebe grew up loving my veggie soup with meat in it. Her favorite being carrots.

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by 02kar 10 Jun 2010

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I am so sorry. I know she was not just a pet, but a very valued member of your family. It is ok to cry. I am here typing and crying with you. So you are not alone in your grief. We, your Cute family are there with you patting you on your back, giving you hugs, and all the support you can carry. Don't hesitate to talk when you need to be loved.

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by jrob 10 Jun 2010

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I'm so sorry for your loss.

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by nanniesara 11 Jun 2010

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I am so sorry, just remember all the love she has given you and you will always have your memories. She knows how much you love her also.
She is so fortunate to have a loving master. I know how you feel. Sara

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by haydebug 11 Jun 2010

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Linda, I was thinking about you, and wondering how you are fairing!! Big Hug Kim

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by gerryvb 12 Jun 2010

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dear Linda my heart cries with you. I do understand how you feel.I have lost twice a dear little dog. the last dog was always in my surroundings. I always sayed :me and my shadow. So cry ,give it time and after the most difficult part to say goodbye and burry her, try to remember the good and precious time you had together.
remember the love and know you had given her a wonderful time.thinking of you, with lots of hugs, Gerry

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by marietta 12 Jun 2010

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Dear Linda, I am sitting here crying with you, I had to put my little Suzie the most beautifull little Maltese doggie girl to sleep last year in October when she had bad diabetes. It would have been terrible for her to live with injections every day, and she was also 13 years old. When I had to have Snowy the little male put to sleep about 4 years ago, I at least had her at my side and she helped me a whole lot to get over him, but with her there was no one. I cried so that my family started to get worried about me, but you know, I just decided that I would cry it all out. I cried for a long time, everytime I saw something that reminded me of her, I would cry all over again. Only now 8months later, I do still think of her, but at least not every day, and it is starting to feel better. I have still not had the guts to get another doggie, but you know, I know they are both waiting for me in heaven, and they are looking down at me with love in their little hearts.
I received a lovely little clay pot with Suzies ashes from the vet, and that little pot with her name on has prize place in my house.

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by marietta 12 Jun 2010

Sorry, I pushed the wrong button here, but would just like you to know that I am thinking of you.
Hugs to you and God bless you
Marietta.

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by jacquipaul 15 Jun 2010

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My heart goes out to you Linda. My prayers are with you also. Don't worry about venting; this is the place for it. Your little Bebe will have no pain and will be in a peaceful, happy place.

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by castelyn 16 Jun 2010

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Linda, so sorry to read about Bebe. I know how you are feeling. I am sitting typing with tears. My thoughts are with you. Hugs and Love Yvonne

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