OH LUCY I AM SO SORRY. I WISH COULD HELP. ALL I CAN DO IS TO PRAY FOR YOU AND SEND YOU ELECTRONIC HUGS. I HOPE YOU WILL FIND THE STRENGTH TO GET THROUGH THIS.

Lucy, it sounds like you're really having a rough time lately. Maybe there's something good to come of the changes that seem to have been forced upon you. Many people find that having a huge cleanout gives them less to trip over and less 'stuff' to clog up their lives. You might find the same. Life is full of changes and we don't get much choice in a lot of them. There's a saying I like about not being able to change the bad things that happen, but that we *can* change our attitude to them. Worrying about things won't help. I hope you are able to think of some good things that have happened over your life and how much time you've had to enjoy all that 'stuff' you are now needing to clear out of your lives. May these changes go quickly and you look forward to better times.

Lucy, I'm sorry you are having such a rough time. But please remember you aren't alone on this journey. Many here have gone through or even going through what is happening now in your life. Our "Cutie" friend Shirlene is a prime example... You need to be strong for Walter too, he needs you right now more than ever. The Lord will take care of the rest. You have to have FAITH.....He has promised us that He will never leave us or forsake us, but we have to TRUST Him... Continue to pray for guidance on how to handle your personal affairs. BTW I live in a 1000 sq home and you are right there isn't much room for "stuff", but I use the smallest room as my sewing room and my middle room as a bedroom/fabric storage. We gotta do what we gotta do. :) Stay encouraged and know that many here are praying for you and Walter both...

Lucy,
I'll keep you in my prayers. I sure I can't image how bad it truly is since I have never being in your shoes. Our 33 anniversary is just around the corner. I can just say we will hold your burdens up to God and ask that he help you with all that you have to face.And ask him to lead the doctor in the right direction for both of you.
N

LUCY...THE LORD TELLS US THAT MATERIAL THINGS ARE OF NO IMPORTANCE....BESIDES YOU CANNOT TAKE THINGS TO HEAVEN WITH YOU AND THERE WILL BE SOOOO MUCH MORE AND BETTER THERE FOR THOSE WHOM BELIEVE IN HIM....

WE HAVE STARTED TO DOWNSIZE NOW SO WHEN AND IF ANYTHING WAS TO HAPPEN, WE WOULD NOT NEED TO WORRY ABOUT MAKING DECISIONS AND ALL. I LOOK FORWARD TO LESS AT THIS POINT. I HAVE ABOUT 500+ FAIRY FIGURINES TO SELL..MOST COLLECTIBLES, BUT I HAVE THEM PACKED AWAY SO THEY DO NOT GET BROKE...OF NO USE THAT WAY....TAKE A LOOK AT WHAT YOU AND WALTER STARTED OUT WITH WHEN YOU FIRST GOT TOGETHER...I BET YOU SHARED MORE OF EACH OTHER AND WITH FRIENDS THAN NOW WITH EVERYTHING YOU HAVE....HAVING ALOT OF LITTLE THINGS AROUND ISN'T ALWAYS WHAT IS IMPORTANT IN LIFE...MONEY AND OBJECTS ARE NOT WHAT IS THE BEST EITHER...WE ARE BORN WITH NOTHING ON OUR BACKS ABD AT SOME POINT WHEN WE ARE DEAD, WE WILL HAVE NOTHING ON OUR BACKS EITHER...THE LORD GIVES AND THE LORD TAKES AWAY,,,PRAISE HIMFOR YOU ARE ALIVE AND HAVE EACH OTHER TO LEAN ON.....WE ARE ALL HERE TO CHEER YOU ON, SUPPORT YOU, AND LIFT YOU UP WHEN NEEDED.....PRAYERS FOR THE 2 OF YOU...WILL BE HERE IF YOU NEED ME...LOVE AND PRAYERS DEANNA

DEAREST LUCY,
I WISH WORDS WOULD BE ENOUGH TO COMFORT YOU IN YOUR DIFFICULT TIME, BUT I KNOW THAT GOD WILL NOT LET YOU ALONE, HE IS HOLDING YOUR HAND ALL THE WAY THROUGH, ALTHOUGH YOU CAN'T FEEL IT.
I LOST MY SON, THAT IS WHAT I THOUGHT WHEN HE WENT BACK TO JAPAN, BUT NOW WE ARE CLOSER THAN EVER, FACING TOGETHER OUR DIFFICULT SITUATION. MATERIAL THINGS DON'T MATTER, WE PRAY FOR HEALTH AND I WILL PRAY FOR YOU, THAT YOU WILL OVERCOME THIS. LAST WEEK, WITH HELP OF MY FRIENDS, I COULD SEND MONEY TO MY SON TO BUY GROCERIES, OTHERWISE HE WOULD BE STILL SICK WITH ANEMIE. I DON'T OWE ANYTHING, I DON'T HAVE HOUSE(THE HOUSE I LIVE IS MY HUSBANDS AND GO FOR HIS KIDS ACCORDING TO THE WILL). I RAISED MY 3 SONS ALL BY MYSELF, SO I COULDNT BUY A HOUSE, ALWAYS PAYING RENT. MY SONS BEDROOM IN JAPAN, IS A VERY TINY ROOM, WITH SPACE ENOUGH FOR HIS FUTON AND A SMALL TABLE FOR HIM TO STUDY. HE'S GOT NO TV, AIR CONDITIONER OR HEATER, BUT HE IS A HAPPY YOUNG MAN, DETERMINED TO STUDY AND HAVE A GOOD CAREER, SO I'M JUST HAPPY NOW HE CAN CONCENTRATE IN HIS STUDYING NOT WORRING ABOUT THE FOOD.
I WILL PRAY FOR YOU, DEAR FRIEND. DO NOT GIVE UP.
FEEL THE LOVE WE, CUTIES, ARE SENDING ON YOUR WAY.
I LOVE YOU.
YORIKO

DARLING LUCY,

MY HEART GOES OUT TO YOU AND WALTER AND I PRAY THAT YOU WILL SEE THE LIGHT AT THE END OF THE TUNNEL SO TO SPEAK.

AS EVERYONE ELSE HAS SAID KEEP STRONG IN YOUR FAITH AND JUST BELIEVE THAT THINGS WILL WORK OUT FOR THE BEST. I BELIEVE THAT HAVING TO GO TO A SMALLER HOME CAN BE CATHARTIC. I KNOW YOU HAVE COLLECTED MANY THINGS OVER THE YEARS, BUT LUCY, THEY ARE JUST THINGS! YOU HAVE THE LOVE OF A GOOD MAN AND FROM THE SOUNDS OF IT MANY FRIENDS TO HELP TOO.

CAN YOUR FAMILY ASSIST IN ANY WAY - MAYBE SOME OF THEM CAN RECEIVE YOUR TREASURES? ALSO HAVING A SMALLER AREA FOR YOUR SEWING MAY WORKOUT. I HAVE A SMALL BEDROOM NOW (AND I CAN CLOSE THE DOOR) AND I'VE MANAGED TO PUT EVERYTHING INSIDE IT!

PLEASE DON'T DESPAIR - WE ARE ALL HERE FOR YOU.

IF IT'S O.K. WITH YOU CAN I PUT YOU ON OUR PRAYER LIST OF MY CHURCH LUCY?

LOVE AND BLESSINGS CHRIS

LUCY MY MOTHER ALWAYS SAID THAT THINGS HAPPEN FOR A REASON, ALTHOUGH YOU DON'T SEE IT NOW THERE WILL BE A BRIGHTER DAY. I HOPE AND PRAY FOR YOU, I CAN ONLY IMAGINE WHAT YOUR GOING THROUGH, YOU WILL HAVE TO BE STRONG AND KEEP TRUSTING IN GOD HE WILL GET YOU THROUGH. ALTHOUGH THINGS SEEM DARK AND DREARY RIGHT NOW THERE IS A LIGHT AT THE END OF THE TUNNEL. THERE IS HOPE FOR YOU AND YOUR HUSBAND SARA

Lucy, please get help. There are people who will help you with your pain. Keep talking to us, we will be praying for you, but please do not give up

LUCY, MY PRAYER FOR YOU IS TO SEAK CHRISTIAN COUNSELING AT YOUR CHURCH MY DEAR. YOU'VE SAID YOU ARE A CHRISTIAN, AND THERE IS NOTHING THAT IS MORE IMPORTANT THAN LOOKING AT THE LORD THROUGH ALL THINGS. LUCY, WHEN YOU TAKE YOUR EYES OFF OF HIM AND MAKE MATERIAL THINGS YOUR GOD, YOU WILL BECOME SICK (AS YOU'VE STATED ABOVE).

LUCY MY DEAR ONE, LET GO OF "STUFF" AND CLING TO WHAT IS REAL. IT ALL BURNS IN THE END ANYWAY. GOD IS BRINGING YOU THROUGH THIS (IF YOU LET HIM) TO SHOW YOU THAT YOU CANNOT SERVE HIM AND EARTHLY THINGS. LIBERATE YOURSELF FROM THIS BONDAGE AND BEGIN PRAISING GOD INSTEAD OF FOCUSING ON YOUR SORROWS... YOUR OUTLOOK ALWAYS CHANGE WHEN YOU'RE IN THE HEART OF PRAISE.

DON'T LET SATAN CONTINUE ROBBING YOU OF YOUR JOY. YOU HAVE MANY, MANY THINGS TO REJOICE OVER. LET GOD USE THIS MESS AS YOUR MESSAGE.

TERI