hello cuties, once again thank you all for your comforting words.i have read them over and over again and they help to ease some of the pain. i feel for all of you who have lost a pet. i have decided not to get another pet for it just hurts too much.i can keep busy doing other things.there is a couple of stray cats, i think they are stray, that come around the house. i can talk to them.i just do not want to get too close to another pet.no other doggie could ever replace my baby.he was just different than any other dog or cat i have known.i fed him everyday with a spoon and talk to him and he would talk back to me softly. when he finished eating he would touch my hand lightly as if he was saying thank you.everyday he would walk around the house and check everything out. if something was out of place he would stand by it and growl till you came and put it back.the lid in the backroom had to be put down, if i left it up he would let me know.if somebody came to the door, he would stand between me and the door to make sure nobody would hurt me.he slept on the floor on a big doggie pillow by my bed and always checked on me to me sure i was ok.he was very smart and knew so much.i could always tell him how i felt and he would sit and look at me as if he understood.how often i wished i could understand his language. so this is why i do not want another one. it would not be fair to him nor to another dog. i would like to say thank you to Meganne for the poem about the rainbow bridge. i have read it over and over. i also had a golden spaniel before i got this one. the other one was beautiful too. somebody poisoned him with gopher poison. i lost a cat too. so i can not take anymore hurt. thank you all for everything. i wish the best for all of you and god bless you all.